HerManBitch -> a little clarity.. (6/5/2004 2:58:47 PM)
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My goddess is a beautiful woman who also owns me sexually. This is my first and things have been going better than my wildest dreams in the sense that She has gone incredibly far in reducing me (sexually) from being any semblance of a true 'man' at all. She owns my balls and, being that I've got a great capacity for the activity, crushes them hard and often til the point that I cry like a girl in a high pitched voice. This has affected me permanantly and I can no longer have the balls to really approach her sexually. We have sex for Her amusement and believe me it must be amusing. My thin little pecker is like nothing inside of Her (never was). I don't fuck her. I TRY to fuck her. She doesn't respond except out of amusement for the sake of humiliation. This is only after the point where I start to whimper and cry like the bitch that I am for Her. I do this because my 'manhood' is no longer good for even what it could do on its own, which is have sex for sustained periods of time. SECONDS, now. Seconds is all it takes for my little member to start quivering in a sad desperate wish to give up the ghost, knowing deep inside that I no longer have any place inside of Her. Still I keep going back for more because I want to get closer and closer to this true and definate knowledge of my own complete sexual inadequacy, which is constantly apparant throughout the proceedings. During these times we're always talking about her well hung and manly prospective lovers as if I was Her best girlfriend in the world. Them I could go on about for a million pages but for now I'll just say I'm a very lucky guy to be in so enviable a position. I know that what I've really done is to actually and likely permanantly sacrifice the potency of my labido and sexuality to the alter of Her feminine chalice. In return I get to make Her cum by bending over on all fours while She orgasms better than I've E-V-E-R made a woman cum by fucking me in the ass. She's got a harness with a purple dildo that's 8.5" long and so thick it makes my little penis look TINY, and it is with this that She takes me, cumming again and again, her ass positoined right on the edge of the bed bearing down and often times (thank GOD) propping Her magnificent feet up on my back lick a footstool or digging them into my hips like a horse rider, and then C-U-M-S hard enough to make me ashamed of all the former sex I've had in my life, the traditional kind. From chastity, I've learned to 'cum' also while doing this and it just blows my mind every time to be such a useless lover and such a well-used bitch, so that I often beg Her to crush my balls MORE afterward, as a punishment for being such an inadequate lover. But God I love it when She cums that way!!! She says my crying helps her, I don't know but I know it helps me!!! Please tell me what You think of my story! We are a 'cuck-to-be' couple, I have no balls and am Her bitch. Recently W/we purchased a male harness with a sizable dildo for me to practice with but W/we are mostly waiting for the day I get to lap up Her lover's seed from Her unattainable chalice, not unattainable because I'm not allowed but even MORE unattainable because W/we're both so aware that the likes of I can never make it ..um, work. My total anguish is in ways a big bonus, almost a substitute for the penis I might have had if I were born bigger. She knows she's taken my manhood from 'not so great' to being effectively useless, and this just makes her 'dick' that much bigger, penetrating deeper not into my body but into my mind, thoughts and emotions. It'd be different if I still had the possiblility of going out and finding a girl to pleasure in the traditional sense but She and I both know she's taken my manhood and 'stolen' my verility. My dick is hers and its not just the dildo she fucks me with but also with the memory of my own past verility. DEEPLY. It's come to the point that just trying to "fuck" L. and so quickly coming to that wall of pathetic inadequacy is easily enough to make me 'beg' her for Her to cum. And of course this means bending over in the other direcion, lol. Yes my feminine side is alive and growing... I used to dream of being completely and totally physically conquerred by a woman in the place of sex, seeing great beauty just made me wish for great pain at that beauty's hands (feet esp.) Back then my handle was "pleasemakemecry". I get strangled a lot and often brought to gagging from a strong sized 9 heel in my throat or just my mistresses strong grip round my neck. Well I cry from all of it, she ALWAYS fucks me til I break down and that's when She cums the hardest. Lately I've been getting the groin kicking quite severely (I nearly blacked out/hyperventillated this week) and the last time she was digging Her magnificent heel into the damaging regions of my testicles she held out her other sole and made me kiss it which, in my agony, I have thanked Her for a million times since. Yesterday I tried to wake Her up to "sex" and she said she thought it was "funny", lol. This makes me wish for more punishment. Life with an abusive woman is Heaven. Amen. Sincerely, HerManBitch.
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