SlND3R3LLA
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Joined: 6/19/2007 Status: offline
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I don't feel submissive all of the time either, a lot of us don't. I am not submissive outside of this relationship and I just dare anyone under any other circumstance to try and tell me what to do. My Master and I don't have what most would consider a TPE 24/7 dynamic, but it's what works for us as a couple. He doesn't manage what I do, I just do what I know will make him happy, and what seems logical. I submit to him because not only is he my Master, he is my husband. We were M/s before we were married though, so the situation is a bit different than yours. I am not sure how one can adjust when they had a relationship that existed before the D/s one did. We more started as Master and slave, then got to know each other and fell in love. There are still days when I must bite my tongue in order to not say something back, but those are probably always going to be there. He is not hard on me, I am usually hard enough on myself. If he only knew what I wanted to say and didn't, I would surely get some credit. There are moments when I want to say "Get up and make your own damn breakfast", then I think about how much he does for me and how much he really cares for me, and I know in my heart this is something that pleases him with really very little effort on my part. I try to make little ways of showing him how special I think he is, and how much I want to make him happy. It doesn't have to mean walking around naked all day, it can mean a special meal, or meeting him with a cold drink on a really hot day. The fact is, even if we weren't in the dynamic we are, I would still respect him in everyway. He is a good man, honest, loving, caring, protective, kind, a good provider, and always supportive of my thoughts and decisions. That is how I try to look at it when maybe I don't feel quite so submissive, I look at all he brings to my life and realize that there is no way I could ever do enough to show him how much he means. I then give over my submission with all of my heart, knowing at the end of the day seeing him happy is well worth a few stitches my tongue might have to take. ~sin, Masters sore tongued slave
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And in that moment, everything I knew to be true about myself up until then was gone. I was acting like another woman, yet I was more myself than ever before. ~F To hell with diamonds, lube is a girls best friend ;)
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