buffiyum
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hmmm..... well, i would like to address two issues if that is ok please.
the first is this: opinions are like bums, Eeveryone has one and Wwe all need to be able to express those opinions without 'farting' on Aanyone else's opinion.... that is called 'common courtesy' (which is not all that common, this girl has found)....
It is very importent to be able to continue to express how Wwe feel or else this venue of 'expression' of the Lifestyle becomes only another 'dating service' (ewww), instead of a place to grow within the Lifestyle. If one may say so, part of 'growth' is listening to Oothers with courtesy, not distain. Wwe may just learn something.
The second is this: buffy is a 'gorean' in r/l. i began formally online and moved to r/l with how i feel inside, like Mmany have done whether as Tops/bottoms, D/s or M/s or Oother Ggoreans. But what i am, i have been all my life and all of this that Ffolks see today, is just what is 'inside' coming more out than before, and more each passing day.
i am not young although i am called 'girl' (such a nice word to me), and i donot feel that i am a 'hottie' although how the girl looks is not bad at all, so what does being gorean mean exactly for buffy as a 'slave' eh? well for me it means that i am slave-at-heart and believe in many of the principles which are found in the fictional works of John Norman.
i believe that Men rule more naturally per se than women (and that is only what i am saying buffy believe k), that women are more beautiful and content at the feet of a Man, that women are sexual beings and that this is not a thing which she should hide in shame but accept with joy because that is her very nature and she 'submit' (no pun intended) to that nature because she cannot do otherwise. To do otherwise would be to lie to herself about what she is and that she cannot and should not and will not do. It means that there is great joy in pleasing and serving and in obedience also. It means that she does this as readily as breathing because to do any less would be to deny what she is and like one who dies if they cannot breath, she would die inside if she could not any longer do those things.
This is how i live. Now then.... is it feasible in r/l? Yes. However, unless one is owned, it may be feasible but it is also highly dangerous. i found that out over the course of a year while buffy try to determine how to bring together in safety what i am, with the dangers inherent in being what i am. Its a scary world out there Ffolks.
The only way to do so for buffy, is to keep in my mind always this: i keep safe all that i am because i guard for the One Who will eventually own this girl, all that i am and have. Although Some Men Who also have read the books have said, 'girl you must submit to Me, if you are what you say you are'.... i can now say 'Sir, with respecte, what You see is not mine to offer. i keep it safe for the One to come' .
In this way can i bring together what i have read with reality and keep me safe for the One Who will own this one.
i still 'offer serve' with drinks and such and dances, as any gorean-trained girl should and is glad to do, but there are limits due to the Prime Directive to keep safe the girl (holy shades of Captain Kirk batman)!
Now, as to Gorean Men....
i been lucky i guess.... those Gorean Masters that i have met in r/l have impressed me in several ways:
They are Honourable and Honour is first and foremost with Them. They are true to the books in how They live, how They view Themselves and in how They view slaves. They can be quite emotional and have not a fear to show that, including tears. They are somewhat arrogant and do not care what Oothers think of those tears. These things i like (although that is not a biggie as They would not care that i do or donot like this). However, how Some of Them sometimes appear to view slaves is a worry to me in a way. Their very 'aloofness' with Their slaves is the crux of this. At times that 'distancing' has come across to me as being very close to 'uncaring'.... a kind of 'use, abuse and throw away' attitude on the part of Some and even for todays 'disposable society' that is a bit much for my emotional health to accept. In all honesty, i have found that i need and crave to feel loved as a One's 'valued property'. Yet as a gorean i would also possibly not respect a Man who 'fell in love' with me romantically. i would find Him weak for doing that very thing. i do not seek flowers and kindness but the leash and strictness which this girl is the first to admitte that she needs. Perhaps it all comes down to balance in the sense that 'extremes' can be dangerous, very dangerous indeed. Or maybe it is that buffy want to have cake and eat it too (eek).
Well....
When all is said and done.... when Wwe each of Uus seek a Oone ( or two or three), it is about 'shared perspectives', 'shared limits' and 'shared beliefs'. Like Eeveryone else, buffy also seek 'compatibility' within the Lifestyle in this search for Master.
One thing i do believe about Tthose living this BDSM Lifestyle, regardless where on that spectrum Wwe are..... Wwe need to be more 'accepting' of Oother's 'take' on the Life, or else Wwe are no differente than the 'vanillas' who tend to judge Uus all so very negatively.
respectfully
buffy
< Message edited by buffiyum -- 8/30/2005 4:03:54 AM >
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