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AbsitInvidia -> RE: Just starting out (1/6/2008 4:21:17 AM)
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ORIGINAL: kisshou Greetings tazzy, it is so funny looking back at your life and realizing how incredibly naive and romantic you were. Luckily for me Master PO found me and eventually allowed me the privilege of begging his collar. While he has made every romantic daydream I ever had come true the big difference I have found in living it 24/7 , instead of what I had imagined it to be , is that it is all about him. I work hard everyday to keep my place at his feet. While this is not something he holds over my head I know that there are women lined up out the door who would kill to be owned by him. I think it is funny that as a woman you can get so used to guys chasing all over after you but as an owned slave you are always chasing after your Master. guess I better stop rambling,*grins* welcome to the Gorean forum here on Collarme well wishes kisshou OMG this really hit home for me. For awhile now I've felt like I'm the one 'chasing' him...like I am more invested in the relationship, and that I'm making a fool of myself by always hanging all over him. It's doubly hard because I'm living in a foreign country...I can't get a job, I don't know anyone, and I'm pretty shy so I'm not the type of person who will just go somewhere social alone...but I feel like my entire life is wrapped up around him, whereas I'm just one of many things that he takes an interest in. Is this healthy? I've been thinking I should back off...let him approach me, and find things to occupy my time...but at the moment we are visiting his parents and there's nowhere outside the house to go...nothing to do...I'm in the house with him and his parents all day and it's hard enough to find things to do without limiting them to things to do alone! But when we get home in a few days...I wonder if I should pursue more of a social life on my own, so that I'm not like suffocating him. Any thoughts?
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