chamberqueen
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Joined: 10/25/2007 From: Kalamazoo, MI Status: offline
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It may be a bit like prewedding jitters. I am also about to be collared, and have been thrilled about it, then one afternoon I got very scared. I started wondering whether I was good enough, or ready for the commitment, or whether He truly cared about me. He kept emphasizing how I would have to do every single thing that He said (which I already thought I was doing, willingly and with good attitude) and nothing about His commitment to me (as my teacher, trainer, protector) in return. I let him know that I was feeling confused, and that sometimes I wondered if He even liked me. I got the most beautiful emails in return. He had just been trying to make sure that I understood my end of the commitment, and let me know that I have been everything that He is looking for and that He likes everything about me, that He adores me, and we are closer than ever. I have no doubts left in my mind at all. There is no doubt that collaring is a very significant event - many considering it to be the rough equivalent of an engagement or wedding ring in the vanilla world. Look inside to see what really has you concerned. Are you somehow afraid you aren't good enough? Or that He doesn't feel as strongly for you as you do for Him? Those things can be communicated about. Are you afraid you don't enjoy the lifestyle? Then you have some more thinking to do.
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