RE: Goreans with Disabilities- Support, Advice, Info, V... - 4/10/2008 8:25:33 AM
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Terrah
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Tal Everyone,
Oh through the years I have been challenged many dozens of times, I blame it on my lifestyle really. I take chances with my health, my body, my mind and soul too for that matter. I have a entire list of complaints of mental and physicial pain, along with my spiritual pain, but I do try not to let anything get me too down. I know it takes a great deal of strength for anyone to overcome hard trials of pain and suffering, but they do make us stronger if we choose to look at it that way.
When I was very small, and I don't remember this much at all, but my brother who later died, was swinging me in the hammock and I flew out of it and hit my head on the side of the house on the cement bricks. Well of course my mom was concerned and watched me closely, but didn't take me to the hospital, or the doctor for that matter. She always had aversions for them, and passed that trait on to me. I guess that was my first really bad injury, I later had to be rushed to the hospital I did have a concussion, and stayed there for several days, but it was only after she saw I was not responding to anything did she finally think to take me. Or it was a budget thing, not sure which, but it was not the last of my childhood traumas by any means. They ended up taking me to the doctor and hospital several more times, I was the one who had all the injuries to endure. I broke my arm twice, once while it was in the cast from the first time, I hurt my knee very badly several times, eventually had what they call Osgood slaughter which is the muscles pulling together to form a large knot on the knee. I didn't get surgery for it, but wore a cast for a couple months. I also fell off my bike and broke my front teeth out and broke my cheekbone too. My neighbor and I were playing and she threw a rock to get the ball out of the tree and it hit me in the middle of my nose right between the eyes, never a better shot made I'll tell ya and that nearly killed me. I fell out of some trees and generally hurt myself, broke some fingers from goofing off, broke my toes from kicking my car when I got older and I had a flat before an important interview. Which I had to have surgery on four times to get it to heal right in the arch of my foot. Yes, yes I continued on through the years to bang up this and that, hurt the same bad knee again when I was barrel racing my horse, that was fun, this time I was in a cast for nearly 3 months and couldn't ride my horse for six months. I didn't stop there however, I also have had several bad car accidents, by the way, I was not driving but for one time when a guy hit me and rolled my car, giving me my sixth whiplashed neck. I shoulda been a stunt driver or something, I think it would have been safer for me. lol I had surgery on my shoulder rebuilding it after I tore the rotator cuff when I joined a health club and did too much with it. Right after that I had surgery on my Achilles Tendon and had it rebuilt too. I know about pain enough to know I had to change my life some in order to have a body at my current age. LOL
Jumping ahead I was diagnosed with diabetes two 12 or so years ago, I now have to take a shot for it as well every night. I hate those shots, I can barely get my head around to do them, more or less think about doing it. Every night I take my insulin out of the refrigerator and prepare the needle etc. Then I wait for it to get to room temperature and then tell myself I can do this once more, it's only for a few seconds. I would rather have the bad knee back thank you, or any broken arm. Some how I get through it and do the deed, I do want to live, I really do. Without this shot I know my life would only get worse, perhaps some of the things that diabetes brings on would happen to me, perhaps I just don't need to find out either. Ever since my pneumonia I have had to take more than double my meds for the sugar, now I also take blood pressure meds, something I have never had to deal with before. I also have asthma which this time of year drives me nuts with the coughing and sneezing due to allergies. I put up with that simply because I cannot afford to do anything about it.
Oh yes, I have applied for everything I find to apply for, from drug companies to state or federal assistance. I do get some small help from the county now due to my illness I recently had. That's only for six months, and thank God it is for that long. We can barely afford for me to go to the doctor more or less pay the high prices for drugs and or equipment the doctor says I need now. But, with time everything changes and I may find a way to get the help I need to continue my meds. Thank goodness for Walmart and their $4 prescriptions!! what a life saver huh? Well until you need something that is not on that list that is, then I am stuck calling all over to find out who's got it the cheapest. No worries, there's only two places locally to call.. lol and a others that are much further away. Hunting a value is not easy, but well worth it if you are saving money.
At least Tavares got his raise finally. That shall help us out greatly. Well up until the gas prices are so high one has to take a loan out to get a tankful, which I do see coming to us down the line shortly. No matter who is in the White House I think the gas prices will rise considerably throughout the coming year and beyond. Bush made sure he was not going to run outta money.
I look at my diseases as challenges not diseases. I don't think I could get through a day at all if I did that. I think of them as little as possible honestly, and I live my life as I can day to day. I have recovered spiritually to some degree, my mental is good most of the time, and my body works if I don't overdue it too awful much, as for my heart, Tavares fills it every single night with his patience while I too yell and scream from what I have not done or what I wanted to do and couldn't, feeling a failure to him for not being able to keep up as I once did. He gently reminds me I am still recovering and things take time, he sends me to bed with a smile and a kiss telling me to rest so I can be better soon. Gotta love a guy like that ya know? So in that I am very rich and that is what drives me on each day knowing I really am blessed very much for having him in my life and knowing he is always there to help me along life's path where ever it takes us.
I wish you all best of health and happiness,
Terrah
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"Courage is being scared to death and saddling up anyhow." (John Wayne)
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