gentlesurrender
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ORIGINAL: starshineowned A few months back Master and I had a not so pleasant exchange. I honestly do not even recall what it was about, except that I felt absolutely horrible inside the rest of the night, and He did not want me around or near him. He did not even sleep in bed. The next morning when I woke Him for work, His reply was gruff, short, and curt..it just was not that same affectionate tone that was use to. To Him he was just waking up and there was nothing about it. I took it as his still being not happy with me and not wanting me around so i dismissed myself back to the bedroom, and layed back down. I did not do what was suppose to do which was make his coffee, breakfast, get meds out, make his lunch for day, and lay his clothes out. Again under the feelings that he did not want me around and out of his way. I assumed ..deadly mistake. I learnt that day without a doubt what it meant to be a slave, to serve, and what obedience was. Bad days and my emotions are never an excuse to not serve. Ever. starshine Happy slave of Master Delvin thank you starshine for sharing your experience communication is so important. Understanding what is expected and required. It is only with a Master's guidance can you progress and work through times when things dont go right. on the subject of communicating - we are our past in the terms that what we have felt, dealt with and seen, make us who we are. Although we move forwards it is difficult sometimes to not allow the past to affect the way we move into the future. Searching for the right person to submit too is at times a place of vulnerability and caution is high, i wonder if others found at times they didnt always show the person that resides within their hearts.
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We're never so vulnerable than when we trust someone - but paradoxically, if we cannot trust, neither can we find love or joy" Walter Anderson
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