Falaria
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Joined: 7/9/2006 Status: offline
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Tal, Bull I am here because a girl I know, histressure, brought me here a couple of years ago while I was visiting her and her Master. She had told me of the sight and would read various threads that were being discussed that she would respond to. I signed up because of her and because I too have questions that I was seeking answers to as well as having an unquenchable thirst to learn and for knowledge. quote:
I found this thread to be most intresting, simply because it does ask a very thought provoking question. Why am I here? Intially, I came to these boards to have questions I have always had answered. I had a very dim view of the Gorean way and wanted to see if that view was justified. Just like with anything else in life, to know you have to learn, and to learn you have to seek. So, I sought. And I found that my impressions of Gor and its ways had been jaded by half truths, rumors, role players and just plain ignorance on my part, and on the part of people who I spent time with. As I read, and participated in discussion, (even if what I said was viewed as being arrogant or all knowing, which it wasnt meant to be, simply that I know my own mind and so on) I found that there was much to learn, and room to grow and to explore the possibility that my life, and the life around me was paralleled by the Gorean ethos. This was some what shocking to me, but instead of running from it, I became hungry to learn more, to experience more, to gather more. So, I began reading, studying, asking questions, and moving forward with my self education. I found it a much better way to spend my time on line here, versus on other boards, or in other areas that left me no thinking room, and no room to grow as a person. Lithium, I totally agree with you and have found myself doing the same. Yes, I have even spent time online irc trying to find some of those answers and trying to get an understanding and all it has left me with is a feeling that I have been to 'Disney Gor'. I barely frequent irc and when I do it is to see some friends that I have made over the years, in both the BDSM & Gorean communities. Now I just frequent these boards when I get chance, which is mostly on the weekend as I am usually helping my youngest with her homework. I am happy to say that she lives more by my example than my ex's, and I say that because he is a very self-centered, selfish person who is all about "me" and unfortunately our oldest takes a bit more after him than she does me, but she is slowly waking up to the realization that it doesn't always work that way and I've been lucky enough to have gotten the Honesty and Integrity instilled into her. The others are slowly coming as she asks more and sees how her younger sister is doing. I even got her to laugh when her father asked me not to tell his mother something to which I responded back with "Nope, sorry I no longer can do that for you, besides which I refuse to do so. I'm not married to you therefore I refuse to lie for you any more just to keep you from getting the much needed ass chewing from your mother, so deal with it. From now on if she doesn't ask, I won't tell, but if she asks, well all bets are off. I've hated myself for all these years of having to lie to your parents just because you aren't man enough to stand up to them and tell them that it's your life and you will live it the way you want to." Anyway, my life is better now for finally being able to be who I am and how I am and not compromising my beliefs and moral upbringing. I enjoy the various topics of discussion that I have found on this board and the vast amount of knowledge and wisdom that is out there to learn, if one only just seeks it. I hope never to grow tired from learning and hope never to stop growing. I wish you all well. Falaria
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