WomanIam
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from the significantly overweight and pushing 50 lady that did NOT wish to participate in the cut sabrina up conversation and make her feel bad, i would like to say something.
first of all, i am very proud of my age. i have earned every one of my years. i am not jealous of sabrina. she is much younger a different generation, why should i be jealous? i guess sabrina if you have that fantasy then i wish you well with it but i really am not. it is NOT my place to judge anyone else's lifestyle or looks. that belongs to a higher power then me.
sabrina had commented to me earlier that she was very proud that her pants were getting baggy as she was losing weight. kudos sabrina, i really mean that and i believe i said something at the time how great that was. actually, i dont remember the other young lady making any comments about your pants being too big though.
yes, i am overweight. i have recently had thyroid surgery and will soon have more surgery. i am NOT supposed to work out but still i sneak. the comment about my weight was a cheap shot sabrina. if it makes you feel better, take some more cheap shots .... i will bend over and you can kick me too. do you feel better now that you have worked all of this out publicly? obviously you didnt since you still had the need to email and IM a Master in my life and complain for quite some time about me. whats the next step of punishment for me that you seem to think i deserve?
during this conversation i was appalled. yes, i learned my lesson. next time something like this happens i should walk away so that sabrina doesnt blame me. as a matter of fact, i think it would be safest if i dont talk to sabrina at all as this is not the first time that i am suddenly being lamblasted all over the place by her and i didnt even know what was going on. i thought that we were friends and gee, we do talk fairly often at the office.
i tried several times to direct the conversation away from sabrina but no, sabrina, you continuously took the conversation back to yourself and encouraged the other young lady to give you more comments. i was very surprised at some of the things that were said but you seemed to want the comments from the other lady.
when i left your office that afternoon i could not believe what had just occurred. and then a week later i find that you have posted this here and let all believe things that are just twisted slightly off center. first of all, if i had known you were upset i would have gone and gotten the other gal and made sure she apologized. i dont think she realized either that you were upset. you kept looking for more comments and she felt encouraged or at least i should say, it appeared that way to me.
when i left your office i went to another co-workers office and actually told this person about the conversation that had just taken place and how stunned i was at witnessing something like that.
what really makes me feel bad though sabrina is your attempt to get me in trouble with a Master in my life. writing him emails and complaining. asking him to do what? is this because you are jealous of me? do you feel the need to try to destroy relationships that i have? i am not sure what your motivations are at all. i most sincerely will NOT talk to you in future about my relationships. as a matter of fact, because of this entire scene, i have decided that i must not have the morals needed to be in this lifestyle and i am leaving it.
all you had to do sabrina was talk to me.
so sorry, slaves and Masters. this conversation was not out of jealousy. the comments that were made to her were because she encouraged them and they just kept going. yes, the comments were hurtful, i was appalled. i have learned my lesson - walk away because she is going to blame me for everything and then make vicious statements about me.
i truly am sorry sabrina that your feelings were hurt. i would have NEVER done that let alone on purpose.
after the other young lady and you started talking about bangs, and then highlighting or perming your hair. i remember commenting about my own hair and how i highlighted it once this spring but that i didnt like all the maintenance. after the other young lady made a comment about the colors that you wore, i remember commenting about colors and the other young lady looked nice in the blue she was wearing, and how you looked nice in the green that you were wearing, etc. i remember saying that it only mattered if you felt comfortable in it and you replying and talking about not wearing yellow yada yada yada....
my personal opinion of what you look like? you are young, you have your own style, you like your style and are comfortable with it - go for it. you work hard at looking nice. me? i too have been proud when my pants got baggy and my workouts were showing in such a visible way. if each of us had the same style, the same look, the same anything .... this world would be a boring place. thank god we all have different tastes and express ourselves differently.
next time sabrina, tell someone that your feelings were hurt first and give them a chance to clear the air.
its a very hard thing when YOU knew i was also on this website and to read about this. i have thought long and hard about whether or not i should say something here. your continous comments that i am jealous are just unfounded. i have no idea why i would be jealous of you and neither would the other young lady - she is quite beautiful and married also.
i wish you luck in recovering your composure. you are a beautiful young woman who has a lot of enthusiasm and you do your job well. i was very impressed with how quickly you fit into your job and handling it. you are a quick learner. none of us are perfect but backstabbing is something that doesnt get you very far.
i truly am sorry that you went home crying that day. in retrospect, i should have realized that if i thought what had been said to you was cruel that your feelings would be hurt. i apologize for not realizing that and coming back to your office to tell you that no, i didnt believe you should do anything to your hair that you didnt want to do, or your makeup or your choice of colors or anything. you are you and you only need to be comfortable with who you are and to please yourself and your Master. trying to please others never works.
yes, i am angry now. i probably will be for awhile. hopefully i will have learned a very valuable lesson from all this. i may be 'pushing 50' but i most certainly can learn.
you have had your revenge now sabrina. please let it die and move on. i will not discuss this any further with you or post anything further to this thread. you are a nice person - just learn to tell people that you are hurt or upset and you will find that most the time, it was not intentional.
signed by a significantly overweight pushing 50 lady who is going into major surgery tomorrow and if anything goes wrong i wished sabrina to know that i did NOT intentionally hurt her feelings.
Merry Christmas one and all....
slutpuppy ~
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