ShivaTS
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Joined: 2/4/2006 Status: offline
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I have come to the decision that I must not read anymore and post on te Gorean forum. After thinking about it I dont beleive I could please a Master because of my failings. I will try to find a bdsm dom to train me in the hopes one day I will be release and be good enough to be considered by a Gorean Master/Mistress. Though I think I can only recieve my true training from one of you, I dont think I deserve it due to the way I think. I hope with the right dom, they will be able to strip away my limits so I may truly be worthy of a Gorean. I would like nothing more than to be able to present myself to you saying I would do what you ask and endevour to strip away the feelings I have, which I would, if you would teach me, train me. It hurts too much to know the displeasure you would have by working to remove these misguided thoughts I have. I hope to find you again years from now for you to rejudge my potential. Since I have admitted my failing and I am bearing myself for the last time, I believe you were wrong, I dont care who I am, just who I should be. My biggest fear it to is rejection. I will do anything to avoid it including presenting myself even if I want to badly. I think the most brutal training would be the fastest and appropriate treatment for a slave like me. No pansy thoughts. If I servive and am sain, then I will be the stronger for it. Thank you, everyone for your guidance. I have learned more in this week than I have in a lifetime.
< Message edited by ShivaTS -- 2/8/2006 2:25:41 PM >
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