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ORIGINAL: Phoenixpower

Thanks Greedy, yay indeed for that one...

I admit my complaint was shocking long and some folks said it is the worst I can do and that he won't read it...

I admit it was 11 pages long [&:

I admit I know that this is awful long, but I swear I kept it short...as he still doesn't know all her bullying towards me...

I admit I dropped it off to him as it is apparent that it won't be working out
in that house with that boss and if I wouldn't drop it off by now, then the boss would take it at a later stage as "why didn't you say something earlier"??? and could take it as weakness that I would be a push over, when in reality I personally prefer to stay out of such drama wherever possible...

I also admit, the fact, that the boss called in external help to try to get the
employee-unhappiness-crisis under control, encouraged me further to have my say as aspects like trying to bully me about my weight, believing that she could dare to question my parents parenting skills towards me as well as other stuff like that is not something which I have to tolerate from her...

I admit all my bosses in my 16 years of work history, didnt yell and insult me as much together as she did in last nine weeks and I'm happy to look for
a new job now...as I don't trust there much to get work in a different house as their in-house managers are treated almost holy due to not many people being willing to work like that (living at work).

I admit whilst this job destroys a fair bit my ending of this year, I appreciate the christmas treats and wishes which I received today from my landlady
(when I got up self made pralines and a really nice card were waiting for me at the front of my door) as well as from another tenant who just got me up as she pressed my doorbell three times (she placed a white chocolate angel in front of my door...at least I think it is chocolate and neither soap nor a candle) as well as a burning candle around which she placed a paper box with a christmas theme on it...I decided to leave it on burning for today, just have to keep a close eye on it...) anyhow after that shit at work that was a nice opposite treat for me now and I'm grateful for it [:)]

I admit I am wishing everyone a happy christmas season [:)]

I admit another reason why

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ORIGINAL: 0ldhen

I admit........

I admit life has kept me hopping, my posts are amost non existent but I am still on daily, reading, talking to my friends on the other side......

I admit, Merry Christmas Eve, I love you all, me heart is full, collarme has been my kinky, funny, wacky yet ever faithful family these many years......

I admit to those who've known me through all my incarnations, past and present, those who are close know what day, hour, time this is for me.....

I admit to those of you with whom I've shared my life, my home, my joys, my ups and downs, I ask your indulgence for this post, once again, as I have many Christmas Eves in the past....

I admit, to others, well, take this post as any with a grain of salt, remembering as Trollikins would quip, YMMV.....

I admit that a few hours from now, feeling silly, I'll wish I was a mod so I could pull this admit, yet, thank you gods and goddesses I am not, those folks are either insane or the most dedicated set of humans on the planet, maybe both.....

I admit, if you go back through the years, you'd find a post just like this one, written at this hour,on this day....

I admit, in a few hours, like the rest of the world, I'll be busy, no matter how sick, no matter how I feel right now, I'll be ok again, smiling, going about my day, getting ready for SandyClaws......

I admit, Happy Anniversary my love, my Master, my soul, I think today would have been 32 or 33 years, would it not.....

I admit, I miss you still, yearly, monthly, weekly, daily, hourly.....

I admit that this most sacred of days, to me for a different reason than most, I still smell you, musky, all man , touch of brut, trace of 50weight, hint of winter snow, smoky leather, whiff of unfiltered camel.............

I admit I still taste your mouth, sweet gum, hot blood, wicked tongue.......

I admit,I still feel your kisses, your beard, silver even then, on that our first time, your long hair, you hands, the way you grasped me between the legs and growled MINE.......

I admit, I have readied our anniversary ritual, put Lunatic Fringe on the cd player, brewed the coffee, poured the Jack Daniels, neat, into our glases, started the fire, lit the candlles, turned on the christmas tree......

I admit, I wait, as I have these last dozen or so years, gazing at the star filled sky, straining my ears for the rumble thump of the panhead, coming for me at long last......

I admit that now, at this moment, I curse and question the wisdom of the gods for taking you but leaving me.....

I admit, I miss you, I love you, I know you ride free on the winds of forever, bitch seat empty, biding time until we are joined for that eternal putt, leather next to leather, body to body, your head on my breast, my legs tight around your waist, your hand on my leg, wind in our hair, as one we ride the rolling thunder into the night......

I admit, I'll go forward now, mourning over, pain tucked neatly away for another year........

I admit it means nothing that I tuck it away, it lives in that secret space reserved for it, for you, my Master, and you alone......

I admit, ......Well, friends, I think I've admitted enough......time to down the bourbon, drink the coffee, wipe the tears, go forth and do as He expects me to, make Christmas happen.....His favorite days of the year......

Merry Christmas Master mine, Happy Anniversary too......

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ORIGINAL: 0ldhen

I admit........

I admit life has kept me hopping, my posts are amost non existent but I am still on daily, reading, talking to my friends on the other side......

I admit, Merry Christmas Eve, I love you all, me heart is full, collarme has been my kinky, funny, wacky yet ever faithful family these many years......

I admit to those who've known me through all my incarnations, past and present, those who are close know what day, hour, time this is for me.....

I admit to those of you with whom I've shared my life, my home, my joys, my ups and downs, I ask your indulgence for this post, once again, as I have many Christmas Eves in the past....

I admit, to others, well, take this post as any with a grain of salt, remembering as Trollikins would quip, YMMV.....

I admit that a few hours from now, feeling silly, I'll wish I was a mod so I could pull this admit, yet, thank you gods and goddesses I am not, those folks are either insane or the most dedicated set of humans on the planet, maybe both.....

I admit, if you go back through the years, you'd find a post just like this one, written at this hour,on this day....

I admit, in a few hours, like the rest of the world, I'll be busy, no matter how sick, no matter how I feel right now, I'll be ok again, smiling, going about my day, getting ready for SandyClaws......

I admit, Happy Anniversary my love, my Master, my soul, I think today would have been 32 or 33 years, would it not.....

I admit, I miss you still, yearly, monthly, weekly, daily, hourly.....

I admit that this most sacred of days, to me for a different reason than most, I still smell you, musky, all man , touch of brut, trace of 50weight, hint of winter snow, smoky leather, whiff of unfiltered camel.............

I admit I still taste your mouth, sweet gum, hot blood, wicked tongue.......

I admit,I still feel your kisses, your beard, silver even then, on that our first time, your long hair, you hands, the way you grasped me between the legs and growled MINE.......

I admit, I have readied our anniversary ritual, put Lunatic Fringe on the cd player, brewed the coffee, poured the Jack Daniels, neat, into our glases, started the fire, lit the candlles, turned on the christmas tree......

I admit, I wait, as I have these last dozen or so years, gazing at the star filled sky, straining my ears for the rumble thump of the panhead, coming for me at long last......

I admit that now, at this moment, I curse and question the wisdom of the gods for taking you but leaving me.....

I admit, I miss you, I love you, I know you ride free on the winds of forever, bitch seat empty, biding time until we are joined for that eternal putt, leather next to leather, body to body, your head on my breast, my legs tight around your waist, your hand on my leg, wind in our hair, as one we ride the rolling thunder into the night......

I admit, I'll go forward now, mourning over, pain tucked neatly away for another year........

I admit it means nothing that I tuck it away, it lives in that secret space reserved for it, for you, my Master, and you alone......

I admit, ......Well, friends, I think I've admitted enough......time to down the bourbon, drink the coffee, wipe the tears, go forth and do as He expects me to, make Christmas happen.....His favorite days of the year......

Merry Christmas Master mine, Happy Anniversary too......