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tiggerspoohbear -> RE: I Admit It I........ (12/29/2011 9:23:04 PM)
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I admit thank you to all those who supported me after my recent meltdown. My dad has a temper, always has had, he had all day to stew about it since he didn't call me til 8pm and I'm going to need to have a serious discussion with him about this. He needs to cool down some before he calls me because he knows how upset I get and how guilty he can make me feel.
I admit I called his g/f and her daughter to apologize for my unintended faux-pas, g/f noticed it that night but didn't want to say anything to me, which would have been much easier on everybody, instead she waited to talk to my dad the next morning. Not a good move to do with him since she knows how he lets things fester and I end up getting the brunt of it. I've been part of that family for well over 3 1/2 yrs now, she should have known she could tell me. I guess she figured I'd get upset, I just wouldn't have done what I was doing, which was something really stoopid.
I admit my thanks to Stella, Fire, Needles and any others I've missed for the words of encouragement and the support. I haven't turned on my laptop all day, just cried all morning and read and finally slept this afternoon.
I admit tomorrow is a busy day, I have to go to the urgent care clinic to register to see the Doc who fills in my mental-health meds, he won't be in until noon, so I'll be there when they open. I then have to go do my laundry in the morning, go to the docs, get the scrips filled since I'm completely out then drive about 5 hrs to pick up my monthly fill of smokes. Thank the Lawd and the rubber duckies for caffeine pills!
I admit I'm not going to the party on New Year's Eve, going to stay home but I may drive to the supper at the restaurant for New Year's Day since I love the restaurant we're going to, Baton Rouge, and it's a treat I only get to go about 2-3 times a year. That and I left a bunch of stuff at dad's that I have to collect since I thought I was going over for 2 nights. Instead, I'm going to drive home after the restaurant and HOPE against all HOPE that I don't miss my exit once again. You'd think after 6 months of living here I'd know where to get off the highway.
I admit, and Fire made me promise to admit this, [>:] that I drove from Cornwall to Ottawa on Christmas Eve and forgot to put the gas cap back on, didn't notice til I was in Ottawa and almost at my dad's. I'm lucky the car didn't stall from getting too much air in the gas tank. I take no blame for this, the gas pump was screwed up and I had to pre-pay then fill. It's usually the other way around and I always put the gas cap back on before I go into the store to pay. No way, no how, nuh uh am I taking the blame for this one.
I admit, okay, it's my fault, but dammit, I drove down the highway, it was over an hour to get there and I didn't notice it in my side view passenger mirror til I was in town. So sue me, I had a major blonde/senior moment. I apparently am prone to these as many can attest from my postings here. [8|]
I admit I wish everyone a Happy New Year and may all your wishes come true this year. I spoke to P Christmas Eve, just for a few minutes, it's been crazy at his parent's house, but it appears the surgeons "think" they got all the cancer even though they had to do the double mastectomy on his mom. He'll be home shortly after the New Year and I'll get to see him again.
I admit I miss having his arms wrapped around me, snuggling and hugging me and making me feel all safe and protected. I hope he can make it down for my b'day and stay for about a week, we need the time together so badly.
I admit 'Nuff Said. [:)]
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