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CRYPTICLXVI -> RE: I Admit It I........ (2/29/2012 8:37:47 AM)
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I admit I remember hot secks... and I miss it a lot. I admit it has been almost 1 1/2 years since I had it... longer than I had ever gone and all but a month of it, I was "in a relationship". I admit that was a lie. I admit that in a lot of ways I am back to where I was over 20 years ago...and I am almost convinced I am leaving this place and returning home. That brings a sense of starting over, of relief. I admit that through this hell, my kids have reached out more than I thought they would, and I realize what strong, caring, insightful adults they have become and they make me proud as hell when I pointed it out to both of them they stated it was because of learning from my actions. I admit that my "picker" has shown itself to be gravely broken over the last 20 plus years and though I am comfortable not being in a relationship... I would love to bind someone, crop them and fuck the hell out of 'em. I admit...that all of this is a situation of my own creation and I should've listened to my head and not my heart. Knowing what was happening the last three years has not made it any less painful.
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