lally2
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funnily enough ive just answered a thread on fetlife about more or less the same thing: for me right now im just not at all interested. ive taken myself off the internet dating scene and was hitting the local scene more, wont be for a while now, but thats all it seems i want right at this moment. i dont particularly want to turn my life or myself inside out for another person. ive recently turned down a really genuine guy because, ive just realised today, apart from anything else, i just dont have it in me to put the effort in. i have no idea why. ive been here before and it does pass. speaking for myself i can say that i know im changing. the horney, sexy motivation that used to be there isnt anymore. submission isnt about my sexuality anymore, its about expressing myself in a loving relationship with a man who understands me. so the very fertile, physical need of sexual desire has been replaced by a very gentle, passive, reflective, sensual but 'no need to prove anything to myself anymore' phase. i have submission sussed, pretty much, im sure there are some wide curves still out there and some hills yet to climb, but so far, from what ive experienced and learned - i have it sussed. maybe its that i need to be challenged more now, i dont know, i have to think it through. but i think youre just morphing, altering in what you need from this. dont despair, youre stilll a kinky fuck just like the rest of us, but i think maybe some of us go through this from time to time. its all about growing and chaning and this way of being is all about that.
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So all I have to do in order to serve him, is to work out exactly how improbable he is, feed that figure into the finite improbability generator, give him a fresh cup of really hot tea ... and turn him on!
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