Greta75
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I have met only a very very few people that like to be called a fat slob, worthless bastard/bitch, etc. I can deal with worthless, stupid, piece of shit, basically really mean debasement, specifically with my x-dom. But if there is one thing, I cannot deal with, even in play, is the word "Fat". I exercise so hard and run full marathons easily and not just road marathons, but trail marathons which is massively harder than road. It pisses me off beyond anything I am called fat especially by skinny people who can't out-run me. I will never be with anybody who is capable of even using that word association with me in anyway, even if it's pretend play. Recently at my work place, they were very cruel. I ordered a medium shirt, they were making free t-shirts for all the staff. And they cancelled my medium and gave me a Large. I was sooo offended because I ordered medium and my skinny male manager even gave a snarky remark about, what if I can't fit into the medium, I can't change into a large later. I told him, even the freaking medium will be spacious on me! And won't even be tight fitting! Which it is! And I can't wait to wear it this week, on the day where we all are suppose to wear it together for an event, to show him, how big medium is! I always feel like people always tell me I'm bigger than I actually am, to put me down for my weight for some stupid reasons. It's even shopping for clothes at stores, where I could have medium skirt and still have 2 inch space around my waist, where it falls to my hips and the sales girl will insist on that I am a large. And they always look shock at me when it's still too big. Perhaps it's because, I know I am not stupid or worthless, so it doesn't bother me. But I live in a country where zero exercise majority people are 110lbs and below and size 0 is normal and men can be 6 ft but still 140lbs to 150lbs as a norm. My boss is model figure with zero exercise in 3 mths after birth complete flat belly. I always see female celebrities, white ones, struggle so hard to get back in shape, with plentiful of exercise and watching their diet. Over here, women don't do anything but lie in bed, and get serve hand and foot with food. Zero exercise. Eating the fattest food ever, pork knuckle, just a traditional thing, for after birth food and they keep shrinking back naturally. The culture is different here, where after birth, chinese ladies suppose to do nothing but stay in bed for at the very least a month. So not kidding about being completely sedentary. It's also common for us to hire nanny at this stage as the mother should be doing absolutely nothing or exerting herself after birth, which makes it even more amazing, why their tummy shrinks and all the fat just melts away. So I am super sensitive about the perceived fat thing, as I am not sized like a regular local woman. So I spend my entire life being fat shamed by my parents, teachers, principals, friends, colleagues, even my fellow sports friends. It's endless. I guess because I receive so much fat shaming in my real life relentlessly. I don't need it in my bdsm play as well.
< Message edited by Greta75 -- 1/4/2016 8:30:41 PM >
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