heavyblinker
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ORIGINAL: WickedsDesire So what does: Being a submissive mean to you Wanting a submissive Knowing a submissive Why are you submissive Why do you want a submissive What do you offer and why and to whom Never forget a submissive is not a singular fixed point, or being, nor existance within space-time - reality All perspectives are welcome - always applies to any thread I start waffle anywhere Well, ideally it would be me finding someone I really like spending time with, and then they also like what I like. I was a big newbie when I joined this forum and I've since realized I could never be a slave because I actually like having money and a degree of control over my life and doing what I want to do. In fact, every time I've let other people take the lead with such things it just made me angry and frustrated-- like traveling with people who just want to get drunk or who are afraid of spending money or who just want to do whatever they did back home. Plus, I can be really moody and there is a point where if someone is seriously beating me down verbally or psychologically I get really pissed. Probably not the best quality in a sub haha. My one experience with a domme was with a narcissistic bitch-- I enjoyed some of it and deluded myself into thinking I could change, but she had too many obvious delusions for me to ever take her seriously... and she was definitely not making me a better person. In fact, around her I was much much worse. Plus, she was probably the most physically unattractive woman I have ever been with, and yet was completely deluded about it all... I think I thought that since she was offering things I couldn't get anywhere else and we clicked in a few other areas, I could get used to it. Nope! I definitely have masochistic leanings but after reading posts by a lot of dommes on here, I've realized that's probably not enough to ever give any of these women what they seem to want, and in fact would probably just piss them off. I don't mind cooking, cleaning, doing my part, etc... but as for doing all of that whenever they want while they sit on their ass just because that is my 'role'? Well, it's probably possible, but it would have to be someone really spectacular. I think I mostly thrive in a more equal partnership... and I actually really enjoy normal vanilla sex... in fact, aside from wanking to the memories of my BDSM experiences, what I got from my vanilla relationships is far superior to anything I ever got out of the BDSM relationship, mostly because I actually cared about the person I was with. I think I just like strong women with liberal values who know what they want and aren't afraid to get it or take charge sometimes-- but I don't want to be abused or manipulated or controlled by them haha. At this point I'm only really here because I enjoy the endless trolling on the politics board. I'm probably not even close to answering the questions posed here-- to be honest, I just wanted to make this confession without calling too much attention to myself by starting another thread.
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