sunshinemiss
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Hello everybody - I'm cross posting this from the Gorean section because so many of you don't venture over there. (They do bite, they really do!) I thought you'd... well I just wanted to share it with you. hugs. It’s been a week of ups and downs here for me. The wedding of a CM couple was celebrated in Florida, and it was wonderful to connect with so many people from here. The love and support and laughter were such a gift! Master permitted me to go and for that I’m deeply grateful. On the other hand some difficult medical issues have come up from a lingering cold in the house to a family member having a massive heart attack. Bringing tea to Master and Mistress, rubbing their feet, keeping them warm has been a challenge but one that makes me feel deeply useful. Love in action is always welcome. Watching as my family struggles with old alliances and bitterness has been painful to watch, and Master and Mistress have been supportive beyond what I’ve felt that I even deserved. But as Mistress says, I can’t serve if I’m falling apart. Through it all, I have been awed by Master’s ability to see through emotions, details, history, and fears. He can see the essence of a situation and makes a decision based on seeing the forest. I’m a tree kind of gal in many ways. Have I gotten what I wanted? No. Has he given me what I needed? Yes. He has given me even what I didn’t know I needed. How lucky to be here. They have not allowed me to be by myself or huddle into my fears. They’ve required that I express even the most ugly sides of who I am, showing my absolute anger and pain. And they have not thrown me out. For that I am also grateful. It has been, it is a difficult week. But there is a rock here for me to lean on. For this, I can do nothing but thank my lucky stars that I chose to obey, that I did not run when things got tough, and that I was required to be honest to the point of ugly. I can do nothing but thank my stars for Master and Mistress and all that they are. well wishes, *tgfka sunshine
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Yes, I am a wonton hussy... and still sweet as 3.14
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