JerseyKrissi72 -> Tell me WHY? (7/10/2007 7:12:08 PM)
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I hate to throw all my problems out there but tonite, I just need to know why...I spent a wonderful year of my life with my late Master- and even though he is gone now, I cannot forget the many ways he has changed my life and the lives of my children. I just got off the phone with my ex husband...now the conversation had me crying..I guess he figures because Ron is gone now, it's time for me to come home..He said "do you ever think of me?" and I thought to myself..yeah I do...the many bruises both physically and emotionally that he gave me...he appologizes for the past and asked me to forgive him and come home..but what am I coming home to? The town itself has so many bad memories for me...I fear going back there would put me in such a state of depression it would cripple me...I remember Ron once telling me that if anything ever happened to him and I went back to my ex he would haunt me forever...Of course, he was my husband, there are feelings there that linger- we share four beautiful children together but I just fear going back would be nice for the first few weeks or so...then he would turn back into the monster he once was....I don't have much of a life here where I am at but I do have a job and friends....I don't want to make the biggest mistake of my life...he talks about how the kids miss me so much..the guilt....the guilt...
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