habibi -> RE: insomnia :( (7/15/2007 8:30:40 PM)
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*if anyone criticizes me for this, fine...you have your opinion, i have mine and i've gone so far as to break up with a fiance over my opinion on this particular substance and i know every negative aruguement about it, so let's not bother with posting protests about what i'm going to say...it will just save everyone time, energy and aggravation...if you really feel the need, PM me* in the really bad times when all my meds (which allllll cause sleepiness, whether i want them to or not) which for my night time doses are as follows, (so you get the severity of my sleeplessness) 60mg MS Contin, 20mg hydrocodone, 12mg Zanaflex (tizanidine), 200 mg Desyrl (trazodone), 10mg Ambien (zolpidem), 50mg Benedryl (diphenhydramine hydrochloride), and 25mg Unisom (doxylamine succinate). There used to be more, too...but i got terribly tired of STILL not being able to sleep with all of that AND being tired all the next day. so, even with all of that, i STILL can't sleep about 30-40% of the time. but, you know what ALWAYS makes me sleep, leaves me with NO grogginess, no side effects to be felt at all really...and makes my MS symptoms feel MUCH better, leave me feeling less like i want to die after chemo, cures headaches that no amount of opioid or migraineprescription meds ever could, and in general makes me enjoy a few hours of the night much more than usual? ...take a guess....take a hard guess. here's a hint..it's an herb, used for centuries for hundreds of spiritual and medicinal purposes...can be made into a smoked or vaporized mist, an infusion, a tincture, an oil infusion that can be used to cook nearly anything, and even a compress....and here's the clincher...it's currently illegal in many states but VERY legal in Amsterdam (along with prostitutes, if that's your thing...?) yeah, you know what i'm talking about. *NOW HOLD ON* this is NOT something i do every day...or every week...or even every month. sometimes i don't do it for months at a time. but...when i feel like it would benefit me, i do it. i used to do it much more frequently...up to 4 times a week (monday, wednesday, friday, saturday) it was hardly different than going out to a bar except i NEVER drove afterwards, it's cheaper and it enhanced my mood, creativity, introspection and feeling of social ease, not to mention made me physically feel better. it leaves me with about 60-90 minutes of "happy time" then an ever increasing drowsiness, leading to a full on, snoring, drooling, "i can't believe i slept that well, i hardly MOVED", beautiful slumber. ....this is NOT for everyone...i had a bf that puked every time he smoked because he got so paranoid...not for highly addictive personalities (though i feel strongly that it's not PHYSICALLY addictive, but EMOTIONALLY addictive...as in too many use it too much to escape life...or simply that it's addictive in the way food or sex or gambling can be addictive..you do it all the time because it FEELS good and you do not restrain yourself from making it constant. my person belief is that it should be used to ENHANCE your life, not BE your life........and when i would start to feel like i NEEDED to do it, i would stop for a period of weeks until i couldn't care less about it, then would ease back into it) and not for use if you're going to irresponsible (as in doing it when you are alone with a UM, before driving or if you're using your rent money to purchase it...it's like any other "recreational" item, be it fine foods, alcohol, cars, boats, etc...if you're not going to be responsible and moderate, you just shouldn't do it.) AND THAT...IS ALL I HAVE TO SAY ABOUT THAT!! anyway...this is one of my solutions.....as you can see, i've tried nearly EVERY option to get some sleep, from medications, to sex, to a VERY expensive bed, massages, meditation, hypnosis, exercise and deliberate sleep dep. to force sleep.....some have worked sometimes, none have worked all the time. though i DO agree with bandit...if you're able to HAVE wild, crazy, rowdy sex....do it!! that sleepiness afterwards is SO satisfying.......second only to a good wank on my own....done properly that can be as good, or better than many sexual encounters!
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