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passionatekink -> Into the face of futility I fly. (7/1/2005 9:25:54 AM)
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One week and no contact. My first post, to the introduction forum
violated the rules and was justly deleted. I will admit to not having
read the rules but only because the first link I followed listing
guidelines was to a missing file. Here now is what I hope is a conforming
introduction
This site correlates the best to my interests as any I have yet found
in the free domain. I have not studied the communities associated
with BDSM and may have more in-common than I think and may enjoy some
of the activities but I have not been drawn to them and do not find
them arising on their own within me, not the majority of my
current perception of BSDM especially the elaborate nature and the
involved equipment. For example I would love to tie some one, but any
available rope like object would do. For me the acts are better
spontaneous, extemporaneous, and opportunistic. Lengthy and involved
but not heavily orchestrated, scripted or choreographed. I like the
concept of intensity in the search for erotic pleasure that belies the
pain or discomfort that may be encountered in the intervening moments,
but not pain for pains sake an certainly not pain that demeans or
subjugates another. It could be I would come to appreciate this
desire in another and learn to fill this role as part of my desire
to please, not unlike many activities I currently do that are not
strictly for my personal stimulation but are none the less a very
pleasant part of sexual sharing.
So BDSM is not like what I know of my current
sexuality. Most of what I desire has been present from my earliest
sexual/physical awakening which I believe was very early and has
remained intense, and unwavering throughout my life. Some specifics
may have been inspired by the writing of others but they tend to
be refinements on an existing theme not something whole external.
Being married (and not an open marriage) is clearly going to be a
major impediment. Any body who isn't married, even if they do not
object to the betrayal, would have to deal with the restrictions being
discrete imposes. The population of persons willing to admit and
explore their kinky side must be small, the number coming to this site
a significant subset, and the number of those willing to even consider
a married man almost inconceivably small.
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