earthycouple
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Ocilla...yeah...you know...here's the thing.... ***Ok, everyone pay attention...I'm gonna get all real and vulnerable here for a minute....*** I never get nervous meeting people. I don't get nervous on job interviews, when I meet potential play partners, when I go to a new club or walk into a room full of strangers, I don't get nervous giving presentations or teaching people things. It just isn't me. It used to be me...many many moons ago when I was less comfy with who I was as a person then...but today?...pishaw....if you don't like me, oh well. I don't get excited about meeting people because my expectations are nil. I don't expect the person to show, I don't expect him to be all he said he was online. I don't expect him to be anything good. Ever. That way I can be pleasantly surprised if he does show and is cool. I'm nervous and excited about this meeting. I'm going into uncharted waters here in a lot of ways....e01n, he's not, well... he's not average. He's not typical. I don't know what he is exactly...but whatever it is; he's good and I am fortunate. So there you have it....yeah...this is pretty big stuff for me. I'm a loon. I know I'm a loon.
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