whipmenow
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ORIGINAL: QueenRah Thank you, whipmenow, for being one of a very few who knows himself, acknowledges his stance and isn't willing to compromise his principals for shallow satisfaction. Thanks for the compliment, Queen Rah, but getting to know myself, and my place within BDSM, was a process. For years, BC (Before Computers), I just thought I was either unique in my sexual preferances (something wrong with me, something to be kept secret, dark desires never to be fulfilled) or one of many who had female counterparts somewhere out there, whose desires matched my own in almost every way. Once the online BDSM communitity reached those of us who live in, well, the bible belt, for example, my first thoughts when I read the terms "femdomme," "mistress," "slave," etc. were more in connection with my own fantasies than what I have since learned as the accepted definitions of those terms. I now know that "top" and "bottom" are used more in a sexual sense while "mistress" and "slave" go far beyond that. I've had to ask myself: Am I willing to serve in a 24-7 total power exchange (THAT term leaves no room for misunderstanding) to have sexual desires fulfilled? I suggest anyone similar to myself masturbate first if considering answering that question in the affirmative. The correct answer becomes clear. Nothing is worse that a relationship of ANY kind that is based on one partner leading the other to believe he or she is someone other than who he or she really is. Still, having had desires unfulfilled for most of my life, I cannot be unsymphathetic to those who might choose to try to entice a domme with offers of a deeper level of submission than desired by the sub/bottom. Recently, I was face-to-face with a, attractive domme who made it clear she found me attractive, but made it equally clear that play would only follow commitment to serve in a non-sexual venue. It was not an easy choice to go home alone that night. All I would have had to do is tell one lie--either to her or to myself. In hindsight, I made the right decision. She and I are friends today. But if you ladies discovered your dominant tendancies in a time or place when you thought they'd always remain unfulfilled, try not to judge too harshly the sexual sub too if he tries to bite off more than he can chew. Best to all, Glenn
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