zaynab
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Joined: 6/20/2005 Status: offline
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Recently, I had made one post about DID (multiple personality disorder) and that post turned into what I considered an onslaught of.... negative responses. I have not been on this site for a very long time.... and I am still learning what the "structured world" of bdsm is all about (I have much experience with the real life bdsm world).... and after reading information on this site for awhile and becoming more familiar with the terms you folks use.... I am astounded at my stupidity. When I niavely wandered into the main chat room and asked, "I have DID (multiple personality disorder) and I would like to know if anyone else here has it, to see if they want to talk about alters and such"..... that one Dom said.... (pregnant pause) "Is this a joke?" I had thought he said that because it was an inappropriate question to ask in a public chat room..... but now... I think he asked that for the exact opposite reason.... I believe he asked that because the bdsm world is the "playground for multiples"! I just didn't know that. oops... sorry! The terms that are used.... sub-space, zoning out, shutting down, shutting off, age play.... oh come on..... age play?!!!!! give me a break. Alter egos?!!! What the heck do you folks think I was talking about? You are toying and playing around with this and I just didnt know it. I truly wish just one of you would have said.... "hey, zaynab... in case you are too dissociated to realize it.... we are all altered people who are just having a great time here! HELLOOOOO!" I feel like such a fool. It was so obvious. And Junkyard? Geez.... you were really good..... unless and please dont tell me that you were actually sincere... because if you really were sincere.... buddy... you got a lot more problems than I do..... *sigh..... Me? Not Sane? My God! I'm the sanest person on this website! ~ mad zaynab!
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