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SubJordanTyler -> RE: How do you feel as Punishment time approaches? (1/5/2008 11:07:15 AM)

The worst part was the feeling that I let her down.  But true punishment really only happened once for me - which was fortunate considering what it was.  First she worked over my asshole with her strap-on, to get it red and sore and more receptive to what she was going to do next.

Then she tied me down, gagged me, and inserted a buttplug coated with IcyHot into my anus.  I can't even describe the burning pain that caused me.  I screamed and screamed into the gag and fought against the restraints - and she would get down close to my head and tell me this was for my oen good - to learn to never disappoint her again.

I had to last 10 minutes like that, which doesn't seem like much, but when your asshole is on fire and it feels like someone is just tearing it to shreds, 10 minutes feels like 10 hours.  And even when it's removed, you still feel a mild burning for a few hours more.  Believe me, I learned my lesson and was obedient from then on.



DefiantFlower -> RE: How do you feel as Punishment time approaches? (1/5/2008 2:23:29 PM)

Hmm...whether it's awaiting a looming punishment or just having disobeyed or misbehaved in some significant way, without the promise of punishment later...I get the same feeling. Like I'm a failure and can't do anything right. It's so important for me to ultimately be found pleasing, that when I'm not, I'm crushed. The "I'm disappointed in you" factor makes it worse...because I'm always much more disappointed in myself.

Physically...my stomach tightens up, I feel like crying and sometimes do, and I just want to be held. Now, when punishment is on its merry way, I'm scared. Not only of what the punishment will be, but that it won't do any good. That I still can't do anything right and that any punishment is not enough to wipe the slate completely clean. Usually some really long, squeezing hugs and a few encouraging words make me feel better, once the punishment is done.

So yeah...I didn't see much along those lines in the posts, so I thought I'd add my $0.02 to the bucket. Toodles!



girlygurl -> RE: How do you feel as Punishment time approaches? (1/5/2008 2:42:53 PM)

My Sir punished me for my smart mouth once.  I knew as soon as I said it that I was in trouble.  I felt terrible, sad, upset tummy, couldn't sleep, ect. 

girly



Surrenderwithin -> RE: How do you feel as Punishment time approaches? (1/5/2008 6:59:11 PM)

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ORIGINAL: whipingherfeet

just obey obey your master at all times.and you wont have to be punish 


I certainly agree with that sentiment, but perfection escapes us all. In an ideal world she could obey at all times. In an ideal world she wouldnt have to cope with fears, emotions, and uncertainty.... but in reality things are not always that simple.

Maggi



rubberpet -> RE: How do you feel as Punishment time approaches? (1/6/2008 11:13:03 AM)

Luckily for me, I've never had to experience waiting for punishment time.  Mistress trained me well and according to Her, I'm the best slave in the world!  [:D]  Therefore, I do not need to be punished.  ***Ducking because Mistress just threw Her shoe at me for lying...LOL***

I hope I never disappoint Her, but in life there are no guarantees.  All I can do is do my best to never disappoint Her, but if I screw up and She feels I need to be punished, I accept it.  Her word is law and She is not only the judge, but the executioner, too.

I know that if I even slightly upset Her, I turn into a mute and I beat myself up worse than She could.  For me, it feels like the end of the world.  I'm so glad that She is such a patient and understanding woman.[:)]  I couldn't ask for a better domme.



CaraCaeth -> RE: How do you feel as Punishment time approaches? (1/13/2008 1:37:58 PM)

I don’t really get anxious or concerned, or even excited by waiting for punishments.  Most of the time, my punishments swiftly follow the offense I have committed; but even when they don’t, I simply don’t think about the punishment.  I know it's going to happen, I know I deserve it; therefore, I don't see a reason to dwell on it or to work myself up about it.  It's something I caused, brought upon myself.  I am upset at myself for disappointing Master; I’m more distressed when he tells me he’s disappointed in me than when he tells me he’s angry with me.  Sometimes I get sick to my stomach thinking about what I've done wrong, or angry at myself for my stupidity or failure.  When I do something wrong, even if it is unintentional, I feel I should be punished.  Punishment is reinforcement to behave, be obedient, to serve Master, and to remember my place.  I believe very strongly that it’s important to take responsibility for your actions; accepting punishment for a transgression is just that.  I admit I can be stubborn and hardheaded (I’m still very new at this), but I rarely make the same mistake more than once.  But the best part of punishment for me is after it is over, and I have worked hard to make up for displeasing or disappointing Master, is being forgiven.  Knowing that Master accepts that I am not perfect and still loves me, and is willing to help me to be a better slave by punishing me and then getting beyond it.



subantionette -> RE: How do you feel as Punishment time approaches? (1/13/2008 4:58:15 PM)

quote:

ORIGINAL: girlygurl

My Sir punished me for my smart mouth once.  I knew as soon as I said it that I was in trouble.  I felt terrible, sad, upset tummy, couldn't sleep, ect. 

girly


This is the way that I feel, when i let my Sir down i feel sick to my stomach, i cant sleep and i cry cause i've failed him. then  after the punishment and he tells me hes sorry for having made me cry, but i should learn to stop flirting (in the last case) and i say im sorry again and he tells me all is forgiven adn that i am not a failure, but i do have flaws just like everyone else. he so sweet.

antionette



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