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laurell3 -> RE: Disobedience & Barbwire (12/14/2007 9:58:34 PM)
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ORIGINAL: Dedj
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ORIGINAL: RedMagic1
The money he sent was "real," eh? A round-trip ticket from Rome to Charlottesville (or vice versa) is under $1,800. Meeting in real is real. Paying for a private webcam show is not most men's way of demonstrating emotional investment.
actually the amount He sent me was way over that... i have no doubts He could easily fly me to Rome or Milan anytime He wanted to...
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ORIGINAL: RedMagic1
And, #2, this may seem like a small point, but why the HELL are you capitalizing "He" and "Him" when you talk about this guy? I would have to buy a custom keyboard with extra-tiny letters if I wanted to write about him. No way, nohow, does he deserve your respect.
habit i suppose.
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ORIGINAL: Owner4SexSlave
If I order a sub/slave to fuck herself with barbwire and she started to go through the motions of doing it, I would stop her short of doing it. Why? Because it would have been one of the following; a mind fuck, limit test and/or perhaps a test of common sense. I can't wrap my head around this one and remain sane at the same time.
I suppose it could be a guilt tripping tactic for a Dom/Master to end things with somebody, by ordering her to do something that's a hard limit, something he knows she won't obey.. then say that's it you're released.
Hell, I'm suprise the very second after he released you that you did'nt tell him to go fuck himself with the barbwire. After all, you were a free woman again, no longer his slave. LOL...
i told Him i was sorry but i couldnt damage myself like that.... then He released me. later when He started talking to me again i did tell Him i thought He was wrong and had been leading me on and giving me false hope... He disagreed and felt i wasnt showing 'proper' respect and i made the comment that a few hours earlier i had felt nothing but admirmation and adoration. He was obviously very displeased with me. oh well.
i just dont understand why He kept wanting me back when He knew my limitations to begin with and i was nothing but completely honest about them at all times. Stop defending him and bragging about the money.
The simple answer is he couldn't find anyone else ridiculous enough to do the things he wanted for money and he could control you by making you not work and having to take his money. Wake up. I don't care if this guy gave you a million dollars, money is NOTHING when you are dead or seriously injured. Stop bragging about the money and defending him and take a good look at yourself. There is no reason on earth why you should have gone back three times to him. He's a selfish, unsafe predator and you need to figure out how you fell for it more than once and are NOW still talking to him despite the barbed wire incident.
What do you mean you're having panic attacks from his IM's? BLOCK HIM, IGNORE HIM, stop living off of drama and get a grip and take care of yourself. This has nothing to do with you being transgender or not, it has to do with you being uncaring to YOURSELF. The first person that takes care of you always is you. What we say doesn't matter, what you say to YOU does. Tell yourself you're better than this and mean it. If you cannot establish healthy boundaries, walk away from the lifestyle until you can, because you are going to be hurt badly.
If you think the replies here seem harsh it's because the questions are ridiculous and alarming. People are worried for you, YOU should be worried for YOU. You don't need to ask other people whether you should jump off a bridge because someone told you to, do you?
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