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liminalRapture -> THANK YOU ALL! (12/19/2007 6:19:03 PM)
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While working on my Christmas Cards, I realized I needed one more.
I've lurked on numerous sites, back to before alt.sex.bondage became nothing but spam, like before netscape and the web had pictures. (I've been on here a while longer than under this handle--I've changed handles as I've changed.)
This is the nicest group of people I've seen anywhere. I think part of the reason I lurked for so long, not just on-line but in life, is because I could never ever measure up to some of the standards people there had for 'submissives.'
Here, there is a level of acceptance for submission in a very broad range of behaviors, and I have to say I'm deeply, deeply grateful.
It is such a gift to have an understanding that submission isn't a game of 'gotchya' (where you forget to mention a hard limit and then He cuts off your ear or something), where you can have places where you say 'off limits' (for me, that's work), where you can have a friggin brain.
It has been such a weird process for me. Starting off with a "no--I'm not going to do that," and then a "that is too effed up--I can't go there" and then a "well this is who I am, but it terrifies me, and I won't go there" to an intellectual understanding but a visceral fear, to a confidence and joy. The only man I've ever actually surrendered to (much less lived with) I met here. And I don't think it was just a coincidence.
I really think it is a fine group of people, and I thank you all! Have a joyous holiday of whatever you celebrate!
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