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lookingwithin04 -> RE: A Collar Of Kisses (7/14/2004 8:50:06 AM)
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my God all of the words that i have been searching for, are right there in your post, i love him, i cherrish him, need him, want him, care about him. But it's almost as if He doesn't feel the same, he walks ahead of me in a huge unfamiliar city, late at night, not realizing that i've never been in a situation before where there's homeless people and drug addicts begging for money, that night i became so frightened felt so unprotected, i tried to catch up but couldn't and all of a sudden i wondered if He could truely protect me if i was unsafe.
He tells me that i too am not His equal but does that equate feeling like a door matt to do everything He says, being able to take all He gives, sometimes it's just impossible. Sometimes, it just hurts to much and He doesn't seem to understand, i am new, i am scared, i want and need to feel as though i'm loved and cared for, protected and respected. I know i am but somehow there are always doubts, my emotions get the best of me and i begin questioning all of me and more.
Your post was beautiful thank you for saying the words that i myself can never find
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