crouchingtigress
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Today is about love and I want to write about my loves, I want today to be a full on celebration of love, in all its colors, sizes, intensities and perspectives.
I want to be hyper conscious that everything I do is about love today,
I love those monks that walk so slowly that they feel every muscle in their body in hyperconsciousness. I want the way that I love today to be like that, slowed down to a crawl and hyperconscious of every movement of every muscle.
I wake this morning and the first person I love is me, and I see my reflection in the world spiritually physically and mentally as my mirror of how I am doing.
I love my job. It is interwoven into my dreams and contributing back and it seems that that is the magic formula for success.
Spiritually I am sated, I have a relationship with a god that I believe styles me out. I am not sure what else I can say, all I know is that I feel like I understand the spirit world intutitvlely and it has given me strength and grace as I walk this earth .
]My boy, wow what a fearless heart, he willingly navigates my life. He is my personal driver, yes literally but I am speaking more of figuratively, he chauffeurs me, I tell him where I want to go and he makes sure I get there safely and if there are any trees in the road this man will leap from the car and clear them, if there is an accident he will be the one calling in help and directing traffic. He has an uncanny ability to serve, and is willing to explore that with me, although it is based in no absolutes and no foreseeable pay offs…I am honored to own his ass.
]My girl, I love my girl. She is so much like me when I was her age 20 years ago, but unlike me who was deeply confused but unable to ask for help, she has decided that she trusts me, and whatever that means, whatever that looks like.
She resists stuff sometimes and I just laugh, I just ask her why she is choosing to make things so hard on herself when she knows shell end up doing it, and that she has already bought in, and so that her resistance is only the choice to suffer.
I am also dearly amused at her suffering…it fun to watch , the more she struggles the more ensnared she becomes, the more exhausted she becomes and the more deliciously helpless.
Finally she surrenders, and finds the strength to break her bonds, and she will do the assignment or what ever it is I asked her to do, and that is where the heavens part, the sun beams down on her soft fragile trusting face…and she is back home. 20 years old. Such courage such wisdom such grace, I strive every day to be worthy of such a wonderful creature.
]The toymaker, part I am totally safe in his arms, and part if some one needs to get hurt he’s the guy you send. He has a laugh that shatters the room he is always there, like a big soft comfortable sweat shirt, you know the kind….well worn , comfy, wraps you completely, and you always look good in it…casual comfortable fit….and the sex is great too.
]Red Dom, switch. This is a gentle man who has the ability to stay in a sound proof box for 14 days, I cant even imagine being in sensory dep for 5 hours, to me I would go crazy…but not him, in the box, used only occasionally as a hole, through the hole, and food, dog food or human food slid through a slit. The rest of the time nothing but mind…wow, hot and brutal. Yum.
Badboy, yes I admit I love him, I know I should not, I know he is bad for me, I know he is darker then anyone I know, I know I am drawn to sink into his cesspool…but I think I am strong enough to love him fearlessly. And Yes I know I am fooling myself.
]My Samurai Sisters, this is my mastermind, who meet with me every week, to encourage every dream I have! These are some of the strongest women I know, and we are life bonded in commitment to each others prospering, mentally spiritually and financially…wow. Wow. Wow.
My Sister, I call her K-2, this is the most amazing woman I have every been able to meet and I am so deeply and profoundly honored that she is my sister. She has the kind of courage that makes me cringe, we are madly and passionately in love and we will be for the rest of our lives. This is an amazing thing to know. To deeply know this truth in the core of my soul as deeply as I know my heart beats. This is also a shout out to you folks that are not in love with your sister, or brother….you are being a big fat dork and missing out, do what needs to be done to fix it, you know what that is.
My soul brother, my mentor, my friend, words escape me…but we know who we are.
Sea turtles, yes the real ones that live out their ancient lives swimming gracefully in the sea, Thank you for everything…I will serve you always.
]And my Sir, I am so honored to serve him. This is a person that I choose not to define, words won’t do it justice, all I can say is that I am a lucky slut, because his mind is so incredible, so edible, that he makes me feel as though I am a starving child, being usherd into a banquet…every delicacy I ever dared to dream up spread out before me to feast upon.
Plus His magic saved my life. And I find you fall madly in love with people that heal you.
]My cup runneth over…more boi/ys are laying themselves at my feet, my brain says no, stop! Don’t take on anymore how can you possibly be more full? But those are scarcity thoughts, thoughts of an old paradigm that no longer serves me or the world. The truth is there is an abundance for everyone, love multiplies and grows exponentially, love is fathomless and for me to be gifted with so much love I have no choice but to give back and love fearlessly.
]Happy valentines day. Love rocks.
< Message edited by crouchingtigress -- 2/14/2008 10:19:27 AM >
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