yesses4u
Posts: 18
Joined: 9/16/2005 Status: offline
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HI, Now that I am working on the, "Okay you know what? you may be overweight but you would be a great sub/slave for any Dom>" And honestly, this is no BS, after reading this part of the forum and other parts I honestly believe that. Sure, I still have to work on the "OH God he is going to see me naked" thing, but I can do that!!! And from what I have read here, and I am so thankful I found this website above all the others, the right Dom will know how to make me believe this even more and actually won't let me not be naked, sooooo GET OVER IT BETH!!!! Okay so now what do I do? I also know that this is an insane world and I have seen and been approached by man wannabe Masters/Doms that are only in it to inflict pain, not caring about me or the pleausre is only for him. So that isn't what I want. Maybe if I explain here, out loud what it is I want, I can define it best for you and me. I am not sure if I am seeking total domination in my whole life, mostly because I don't understand all about BDSM, no do I expect myself to yet. I am a very strong-willed person in almost all aspects of my life. Sex life doesn't realy count because it is non-existent and until I started researching BDSM I started to realize why. Even when I was married is was just sex and there is so much more to sex, the mind in play in sex is an awesome thing to waste. I have a fantastic fantasy mind and some day will tell why. I want to feel the anticipation of waiting for what comes next, I want the feeling of pleausre from pain, I want to be taken, used but cared for. I want to know that no matter what transpires it is because I am loved and cherished. I love the idea of being owned, but owned and cherished, not owned and abused. I want the balance between the two. I have to admit that the restraints, the spanking, the nipple play, the anal play (Virgin territory here) is all part of what I want. I don't want to have someone pee in my mouth or poop on me, and I DO NOT WANT my dogs licking my pussy, yuckl!!! BUT I don't know any other limits yet. I don't want safe words, because I want to know the Master/Dom I have knows me and I know I can trust him. Anyway does any of this make sense? Beth PS I feel like I have come home, thank you all
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