SavageFaerie
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ORIGINAL: Gwynvyd
*Gives you a soft hug as to not drown you in bewbage*
Honey.. anyone who loves and cares for you would be happy that you are happy and well.
If they only put their needs and feelings as paramount... well then they are not holding you fully in their heart.
We should always surround ourselves with those who hold us in their hearts, those who want the best for us. Those who want more for our happiness, then for their own needs and means.
You are happy and loved. If they can not understand that.. or be happy for you.. then honey, they do not deserve to be graced with your presence.
Give Kimodo a snuggle for me.
Gwyn
Gwyn
Thank you for the encouraging post and putting things in prospective tho poen and I have talked in length about it.
I still tend to suffer from a guilty concience of even things I did for others that goes wrong even even beyond my control. I am a born nurturer, my need to please others seem to have always overridden my own needs....well not maybe, I know so. I have learned let it roll off my shoulders and mark it up as something in the past. Im forgiving to a fault.
What others may feel sometimes does hurt my feelings like my sisters lack of honesty in order to not hurt my feelings which ended up creating a massive mess on my shoulders which I did my best to correct bu regardless will again roll off my shoulders and be something in the past without judging, nor holding one in a lesser regard.
I highly value family and friends....even if there is a odd tiff or misunderstanding, and do my best to fix things where there is no damage the relationships of my family or friends.
I am taking time for myself to enjoy this and its been like a miracle drug. I cant stop laughing, grinning telling myself....damn woman bout time you had some fun and actually step out and see life instead of watching on the sidelines in little box.
My life has been enriched by the whole experience from stepping off the train to this very moment, Im not going to worry about the furture, life has a way of settling that for me.
But the one thing that bothers me is admitting that my long time friend has hurt my feelings by only thinking of themselves....but there is also a history that I wont go into within the confines of a public forum. If you or anyone would like further insight I would be happy to share it but not to the whole freaking world. I do my best to keep most things private and learned not to put myself on the chopping block since I often cant translate what I feel to a keyboard.
My sister, well its totally obvious we are totally conflicting people. She hated me during childhood because I was out there and doing things, while she was a stay in her room playing barbies. When I moved there to take care of Pye I knew it was a temporary thing and I dont resent her for our differences. What we have gained as sisters during this time despite the hiccups of such close living quarters where when in the same room where there is zero privacy. I can well understand as often I just want to get away from her myself.
I try not to live by the judgment of others and learned long ago that Im a good loving giving person. I cant control what others think so try and avoid negatively by dismissing it or just shrugging my shoulders and moving on.
Kimodo and I had a bit a of scratch all the itches time this morning and its amazing for a dog this big he manages to works himself to where he wants me to scratch. He actually came into my room this morning since I was awake and let me know he needs to go outside by setting his chin on the bed with that I need to pee look LOL Since his mom and dad were having a much needed sleep in.
I will also give Bast some ear scratches for you. 
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Disclaimer:If its the wrong word or misspelled I blame on my fingers and brains refusing to interact.
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