Aynne88
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I hate it when I feel like all I can think about is this horrible economy, that I am in the business of home building and no one is building anything, and that I am miserable and cry every day over it and I feel like a shadow of who I was a year ago. I hate that I feel like a needy whiny bitch to Him all the time when he saves my ass constantly and I hate that I feel like all I do is take take take and I don't feel worthy. I hate that I let this get to me when so many others have it so much worse but honestly, when it is your life, sometimes that is all you can think about. I hate that I didn't prepare for this, I hate that all I want is work, not a handout, and I hate that I feel so weak and pathetic. I hate that I can't just fix this, and I hate being so sad. I just want to wake up and feel normal, not even happy, just normal. I will never ever ever complain about being too busy ever again. I hate that I can't seem to see beyond tomorrow. That is not me.
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As long as people will shed the blood of innocent creatures there can be no peace, no liberty, no harmony between people. Slaughter and justice cannot dwell together. —Isaac Bashevis Singer, writer and Nobel laureate (1902–1991)
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