SassySarijane
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Joined: 12/20/2007 From: KC Area Missouri Status: offline
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ORIGINAL: SassySarijane Shhhhh Shhhhh!!!!!! Nooooooo!!!!! Don't say that, Sage! No jinxy no jinxy. I am being hypervigilant in order to avoid it. Anyway, as long as I stay where I am and do just as I'm doing I should be safe. Now when I get my shit together...............and expand my horizons..............I'll take my chances, but til then.......hypervigilance......yep yep. OMG and *cries* I just poured my heart out on this post and my computer just totally ate it. I dont have enough in me to retype it. Perhaps I can later. Just Sari, never say never, I did and it smacked me in the face, or rather BP and poen did and brought me to life. I was strong in not having any relationship till I got fixed.....and still dumbfounded I have been blessed and I get to leave the evil city of NYC and come back home south, that is when I can bring myself to go back and get my stuff as I just dont wanna even go back. *hugs Sage* I am so sorry your computer ate it. That just bites. I am so happy for you, for this blessing you've been given and I wish you and them all the happiness you can handle. As for me, I'm not saying never, believe me. I did a few years ago when certain things were very fresh and raw, but have worked through the initial stuff and a lot of the really bad stuff. I do want a relationship, I just, at this point, I can't handle one, don't have the time and means to build one and it wouldn't be fair to that person for me to try it. I am more likely at this point to chase them away after bluntly telling them I can't and why because of the whys. I'm not saying I have to be totally fixed and perfect cause hell I will never be that, but there are certain things I need to see to before even thinking of getting involved again.
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