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Looken4Friendz -> RE: Ever had a dream about giving yourself head? (10/10/2005 10:30:27 PM)

Ok, so I have not been completely honest... I am curious, but do not have the balls to do anything about it. I do not get off on the looks of a man, but the idea of being forced to suck cock is a major turn on. There I said it, wow why don't I feel any better? Guess for the most part I worry more so about being judged. I very much like and prefer a womens touch, but there is a part of me that desires to be female and used as a slut for a Femdom and or Femme. I am very mixed up and confused with what I want, and do not want at this point in life. I very much hope in time to meet a nice Femme who will lead and guide me as both a slave, and an object that she will own.

I very often find myself downloading BDSM videos, and other sexual content. I am very sexual, and I guess if I had to guess I masturbate about 10-20 times a day in all honestly just depending on the day, and the events that lead up to it. I very much enjoy pretending that I am the female being used, and forced to suck cock, and even being gang banged. I was molested as a child so maybe this is part of why I have these feelings.

I am very open to so many fetishes, and kinks. I find myself thinking of something new at least 1-3 times a week. I have had Femdom Lesbian Mistresses in the past online, and I was fed so many ideas, and information that at first I was like hell no, but some how they all seamed to sink in. I find myself thinking about things I would never do on my own, yet I am so turned on to the ideas, and acts of those things I fear, and hate the most. One of them being a full human toilet. I have never eaten shit, and or been shit on pissed on, and or been forced to clean anyone while on their period, but I am turned on to the idea of it. Ideas, and thoughts are much different the the real thing, and yes I know the difference. I have had 2 real life slavery experiences, and I am grateful for both even though one was good, and the other was not.

Wow, I have opened up... I most times do not have anything to hide, but guess because not everyone here respects the thoughts, and posts of others, that it makes it a bit hard for me to come out with everything. I hate when people have nothing better to do then criticize someone else. That doesn't make them cool, it just shows what a complete idiot, and low self esteem bastard they really are.

I guarantee everyone on this planet has at some time had some sort of bisexual thought, and or desire. They will not admit it because of pride, and fear of what others will have to say. But its true..

Thank you again for all the responses..

Love Alwayz,
- tony



EmeraldSlave2 -> RE: Ever had a dream about giving yourself head? (10/11/2005 4:23:47 AM)

10-20 times a day is on the high end of the spectrum, but certainly not unheard of.

I worry though that you are only seeing the sexual/being used side of things. This is of course perfectly fine and encouraged, but it would behoove you to understand the difference between that and service or submission. Can you see a long term intimate offline relationship working out where your service to her involves masturbating 20 times a day every day?

Continue exploring and seeing what you like, but I encourage you to get offline as much as possible.



Looken4Friendz -> RE: Ever had a dream about giving yourself head? (10/11/2005 6:09:02 AM)

I am not following what you mean here. Are you suggesting that I am just an online player? Don't get me wrong not saying you are, I am asking.. I am not a player in any way shape or form.. As far as online relationships, I am on here as a friend at this time, and if you take the time to read my profile and my posts you will see that. But as for an online BDSM relationship, I personally don't believe in that, as it is not a relationship that would just be a fantasy.

If you are just saying that I spend to much time online, I build PCs, and I work on web sites, web design, and other computer based things, therefore my being online is a must. I have a lot of time to use as I desire, and I use a lot of it to check my profile, and messages on here.

Please do better explain what you are trying to say, because I did not understand you're meaning.

Thank you,
- tony

PS: I also just woke up again lol... Well I am not yet awake, but maybe I just need to wake up and reread you're response.. Either way, thank you for all replies..



plantlady64 -> RE: Ever had a dream about giving yourself head? (10/11/2005 7:01:07 AM)


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ORIGINAL: Looken4Friendz

um.... bi curious.. What is there to be currious about I have had a cock all my life lol... but who knows...

Thank you for all the comments..

I very much enjoy you're comments "Plant Lady 64"... not to say I want to suck dick lol.... You know what they say... "Suck just one cock, and you are known as a cock sucker the rest of your life"... Do not think I could live with that.

Hello There,
To me Bi-Curious means you are curious about having a same sex partner, but not sure if it really could work for you or not. It's not about you having your own cock; it's about you playing with someone else’s.

The statement you made about being a cock sucker the rest of your life if you try it, would lead me to believe you're interested, but due to others opinions of how that is viewed you can't go through with your quest for the new experience you seek secretly inside yourself. I understand how this feels as up until February I denied my sexual/sensual urges worrying about how others would view me too.

I say if it feels good do it. Don't let others expectations or opinions keep you from being yourself.

Mind you I'm not saying you are into guys, but rather the notion of same sex play is sort of sexy to you.

Sincerely,
sub suzanne



Looken4Friendz -> RE: Ever had a dream about giving yourself head? (10/11/2005 7:36:17 AM)

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Hello There,
To me Bi-Curious means you are curious about having a same sex partner, but not sure if it really could work for you or not. It's not about you having your own cock; it's about you playing with someone else’s.

The statement you made about being a cock sucker the rest of your life if you try it, would lead me to believe you're interested, but due to others opinions of how that is viewed you can't go through with your quest for the new experience you seek secretly inside yourself. I understand how this feels as up until February I denied my sexual/sensual urges worrying about how others would view me too.

I say if it feels good do it. Don't let others expectations or opinions keep you from being yourself.

Mind you I'm not saying you are into guys, but rather the notion of same sex play is sort of sexy to you.

Sincerely,
sub suzanne



You know Plant that I very much enjoy you're messages, and you're replies.. You can say what ever you like... Its all good, and very little you say will ever offend me as you are always so polite, and sincere in you're messages. Thank you again for yet another great response... lol, I think I am flirting lol... Why cant two subs/slaves have an interest in each other other then the fact that neither really desires or feels comfortable topping.. So beautiful, and sweet... Gotta love ya..

Love Alwayz,
- tony



luvdragonx -> RE: Ever had a dream about giving yourself head? (10/11/2005 12:17:41 PM)

quote:

ORIGINAL: Looken4Friendz

I am not following what you mean here. Are you suggesting that I am just an online player? Don't get me wrong not saying you are, I am asking.. I am not a player in any way shape or form.. As far as online relationships, I am on here as a friend at this time, and if you take the time to read my profile and my posts you will see that. But as for an online BDSM relationship, I personally don't believe in that, as it is not a relationship that would just be a fantasy.

If you are just saying that I spend to much time online, I build PCs, and I work on web sites, web design, and other computer based things, therefore my being online is a must. I have a lot of time to use as I desire, and I use a lot of it to check my profile, and messages on here.

Please do better explain what you are trying to say, because I did not understand you're meaning.

Thank you,
- tony

PS: I also just woke up again lol... Well I am not yet awake, but maybe I just need to wake up and reread you're response.. Either way, thank you for all replies..



I agree with (what I believe) Emerald is saying. Take care not to base your ideas of submission and service solely on what you read online. It's a really helpful to make acquaintances offline that you can talk to and observe in real-time interaction. Also, it helps when soliciting advice and opinions on personal matters if the people you're asking actually know you. Getting feedback from a message board like this is great, but since we don't know you, we can only guess as to what you need to hear and how you can apply it to your life. Good luck!



sf-Sub -> RE: Ever had a dream about giving yourself head? (10/13/2005 2:17:51 AM)

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Ever had a dream about giving yourself head?
- Looken4Friendz


In my youth, hell yes. What guy would leave the house if he could?
Older and now knowing the laws of gravity, flexibility... I’m just happy to be flexible enough to work my way through the Kamasutra and even more so with another person to share in the fun.



asyouwishmaster -> RE: Ever had a dream about giving yourself head? (10/15/2005 5:51:22 AM)

Ummm, would you believe I had a short video clip of a guy actually F***ing his own ass with his own cock? Amazing video. I would never have thought it was possible. If you want a lookie...let me know and I'll send you the clip.



Looken4Friendz -> RE: Ever had a dream about giving yourself head? (10/16/2005 12:00:08 AM)

quote:

ORIGINAL: asyouwishmaster

Ummm, would you believe I had a short video clip of a guy actually F***ing his own ass with his own cock? Amazing video. I would never have thought it was possible. If you want a lookie...let me know and I'll send you the clip.


You know I think I will pass on that... Thank you for the thought though, I am sure that is rather entertaining and all, but not really something I wish to see, and or try to comprehend.



wolfinside -> RE: Ever had a dream about giving yourself head? (10/18/2005 10:05:24 AM)


Looken4friendz,

It sounds like you are interested in preforming oral sex on a man.

So what? Just because you want that, (or do that) does not mean you are gay. I am sure this is what you fear.

Being gay (or straight) is about who you love, and what kind of relationship you desire, not the kind of sex you have.

This is never a problem for women. They can kiss all the girls they like or eat all the pussy they like and not be looked upon as gay if their primary interest is men.

A woman can have a threesome with a man and woman and eat some pussy for fun and it's no big deal to anyone. (and no one judges it)

But a man does a little oral bi play and he is a fag for life. Poppycock.

My guess is that if you explore your desires you will find out that you are not gay, just interested in a little bi activity. (kind of a fetish)

But even if you were gay, (and I don't believe that) so what, be who you are. You will be much happier.

Also, I think because you have repressed these desires, they are coming out in your subconscoius and manifesting themselves in dreams.

When, and if, you try this in real life, it will stop being a big issue and just become something you occasionally enjoy. (and not to the exclusion of women) Hell, who knows you might find a woman who finds this very hot.

Good luck.



Wolf




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