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lookingwithin04 -> RE: Her Secret Desire (7/23/2004 11:06:47 AM)
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my dear sentforu,
Here is my honest oppinion:
as a submissive we look into ourselves, and our Dominants, we question ourselves, and at times we may even question our Dominance. Your post to me, reminded me of what submission is suppose to be about. Not in the sense of power exchange which yes has everything to do with the lifestyle, but actually what came to my mind is the beauty in all that we do. The way that we always seem to care what are Master's and Mistress's feel, think, and act like. The way that we try not to care about ourselves, remembering and reminding ourselves, that our pleasure comes from our Masters and Mistress's on their time, that we should be pleased and happy to know when they are pleased and happy with us. And to feel sorry and upset when we realize that we have done something to displease them, try to fix what the problem is, be corrected, and be punnished knowing that, it's what we need.
This lifestyle has given me beauty, i dont mean that i think i'm an ugly person, but what i do mean is that i have seen all of the wonderful things that can happen between a Master and His submissive. Finding myself in the middle of it, not watching anymore, was very hard, allowing myself to partake in such things were against my morals and values, but after the first time i was hooked.
Up until a few weeks ago, i had never given up control to any Master, not full control but however much i wanted which never seemed to be very much. I am about to go on a journey with my Master, the only one i've ever truely trusted and the experience will last me a lifetime. Am i scared? of course, do i feel week and vulnerable having so many things fall under the catagory of the unknown? Yes i do. But in time i will fully come to realize where my place is in this world, i will come to value my slavery and love it.
If things were to ever end with my Master, where it comes to the point of release, i'm not sure if i could ever do this again, i'm not sure that i could ever open my heart up to trust someone as much as i have Him, and then just be let down like i may very well be with my Master. My slavery to my Master will end someday, it could be in a little over a month after i leave His home, or it could be several years down the road, but the important thing to remember is that i have someone to share this with now, i have some to teach me, to talk to me, and to make me understand what this lifestyle is suppose to be about.
So again thank you for your reply, for those who have read it, they have read the true way a submissive should think, behaive and feel within the presence of their Master or Mistress. Have a good day, and please write more, it's very inspirational!
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