topcat -> RE: Who are you? (10/20/2005 5:37:41 PM)
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M. Z- < I woke up in a soho doorway, the policeman knew my name- he said 'you can go sleep at home tonight if you can get up and walk away'...> (Sorry- now it's stuck in my head) I'd like to think I am real, if for no other reason, when someone asks me about my dreams or fanatsys, it's hard to come up with something I haven't done... I would hope that those that meet me find that I am pretty much the person I represent myself as- I suppose that's 'real', too. I hope, so, anyway- I have spent a lot of time working on myself, and I think I have mostly done a pretty good job of become the man I want to be. I try to think about what I do and who I am, and my standards are pretty firm for myself, but flexible for others. When it comes to this stuff, I often think that around ten years ago it stopped being 'something I did' and began to become a part of 'who I am'. It is a fairly inate part of my character, and something that I would have trouble delinating in myself. Is it related to my sexuality that my suborndinates at work will line up for a tough project with me over taking an easy assignment with the other superiors? Does my ability to effectivly utilise personal assets to achieve my professional goals make me a more effective lover? I think there IS such a thing as 'real'- I mean that there is a valid, if subjective, value or quality that we recognise as 'real' or perhaps 'true'. But really, all that matters is that we stay warm in a cold, cold world... Stay warm, Lawrence
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