Phoenixpower
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I know purepleasure the way I mean it is that personally I would prefer to have said no as I was simply looking forward to being off that weekend...however, as I know it is serious I am more ok with it to give up that sunday. My "wasting my time on the bed" is not meant negative about spending my time with the person...but simply as it is an awful long day to just be at the hospital where you can't do that much...time simply flies faster if you work in the house...
Also the difference is for me, why I don't feel as strong about it as you, that I am not that close to the service users I work with.
When I was on a temporary contract in 2008 in one particular house I felt strong for the service users as I was much involved with them...and I worked a lot with them....however in that house I do almost only nightshifts (almost as I worked there a hand full of day shifts last summer) and so you are not involved much with the service users... that particular one I usually see for 15 minutes before I leave my shift in the morning...and so there simply isn't much of a bond there which would be the case if you would work at daytime...
and whilst this might appear cold...it is simply my way over here to deal with my resources as these days I can't put in a hell of a lot of energy anymore with everyone. I am run down due to my lifestyle with juggling Uni, placement and work over here and prefer to keep my life simple these days, particular as my placement demands a lot from me...therefore I basically go to work...and when I am off I don' t waste my thoughts on the hassles at work anymore (usually)...as I also know the flipside how much hassle it can cause when you invest a lot of energy and effort into it and then get burned down from stones which are thrown in the way from some colleagues who at times indirectly blame you for using as much effort as you do (which I posted on the boards in the past)...so it is simply my way these days to keep it simple, when I can. And regarding jokes and whatever... with her communication is not very much happening due to her disability...so whilst she does have her ways to say things with noises or so, it is not how it would be with a non-disabled person...she has severe learning disabliities and it is more a monologue then a dialogue...and the majority of the time she is likely to be just asleep (as she sleeps a hell of a lot since the last few weeks) and so 10 hours are likely to be an awful long time.
And so my moaning is not about being with her itself, I do know that it is good for her and helpful etc...but it is about the task...might be difficullt to differentiate, but on many occations I differentiate between aspects.
I am happy to help out when they need someone who knows the guys...but that itself still might not mean that I like the particular task which needs to be done.
And yes, the prognosis does not look good which I assumed already before she had a scan as she had typical signs from cancer patients I know when they were in their last weeks...but I still hope for her that I am wrong...though...its unlikely.
< Message edited by Phoenixpower -- 2/12/2010 2:33:12 PM >
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