innocentangel
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just thought i'd share some of my history here........
my first experience as a submissive came when i got involved in D's. I met a Master there in one of the chat rooms of MSN. He was a good guy and we got to know each other. He too was married, and His spouse wasn't into the lifestyle either. He was a religious Man who didn't belive in divorce, and as well as helping me discover my submission, helped me to try and help my marriage some too. Upon telling Him i was interested in living the lifestyle....i NEVER do this.......He gave me His phone number (i had unlimited long distance on my home phone) and i called Him right away. We discussed different factors of D's and what all different things people are into (golden showers, brown showers, branding, etc) He gave me the list of things He wasn't into, which came out to be all the things i wasn't into either. From there, He accepted me as His sub via online and phone. He called me every morning. I was to be kneeling when i spoke with Him as well as naked unless He asked for me to be dress otherwise. my hair was to be done, and my make up on. He gave me a list of chores to do which was the typical household chores, and would ask me everyday if i did my chores. This all depended upon me........i could have lied and He never would have known, but i was serious about it and was always truthful and honest with Him, as any true sub should be. It took a while for me to learn to call Him Sir, and was punished for each time i forgot; i quickly learned. For punishment, I would have to take my hairbrush (it's one of those wide flat backed brushes) and spank myself with it.......there was no leniency or mercy.....if He didn't hear it loud enough i had to do it again and harder until He was satisfied. I not only had to smack my ass, but at times my pussy too...i remember one time my thighs had blood on them from the brutality it had never felt before. It's not easy to inflict that sort of pain upon yourself, but i did. We got online together and purchased my collar. It was a red velvet one with a silver 'O' ring. It was beautiful. I wore that every day from the time i woke until i had to go to work. There were times I had to whip myself with my collar and leash, not easily done, but it can be done. Many times was i left welted and bruised from the punishments. Hiding these from my husband wasn't easy, but i don't see my husband much during the week, so it wasn't all that bad. He would humiliate me if i disappointed Him calling me His bitch, that i was nothing but a dog.....then He'd make me drink from the toilet, or drink lots of water and make me urinate on myself. after buying a leash i had been attached to the foot of my bed and had to lap water from a bowl until i had the urge to pee, then i'd have to go, urinating all over myself. To be honest, I learned alot about submission during those days. We did scening sessions if i was good too. i remember one in particular, i had to wear my french maid's outfit, and pretend i was His maid. a married girl just trying to make some extra cash. i'd be on the couch watching tv, the work not done, and He'd come home early and catch me. During the 'scene' He'd slap my face and push me around, making me remove my clothes for Him and He'd use me as He wished, threatening during in the scene He'd tell my husband if i didn't submit to His desires. It always brought us both much pleasure. Eventually we took the relationship a step closer, as i handed Him some control of my expenses.....i had to tell him how much my pay was, and where my money went. i wasn't allowed to spend more than a certain amount on groceries. I was in debt, He was trying to help me get out. We were together for 6 months or so. I felt such a fondness for Him and still do deep down. It's amazing how much i miss Him. We had to cut off our ties however because both of our significant others were getting suspicious. I miss serving Him and striving so hard to please Him. And to be honest, though the punishments were god aweful and painful, I still got turned on by them. many times did i share my longing with him, to be at His mercy, to have His hand punishing me instead of my own. The whole thought of being at another's mercy is something i have longed for for years. Just thought I'd share my first experience as a sub......i came to learn i was a slave after all of this when i stumbled into Gor. I think perhaps that's another story for another day.......
innocent angel
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