Kalista07
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i suppose i've been somewhat leary to post this reality to this thread. Perhaps it was the superstitious part of me that didn't want to put this out there and then have to eat my words. The reality is though about two weeks ago we had officially been seeing each other for a year. It's been a wonderful, exciting, challenging, stimulating, growth required year. I've learned so much about myself, my ability and desire to submit, my ability and willingness to be in a healthy supportive honest relationship. It's funny on one hand, looking back i feel so silly for some of the things that seriously stressed me out in the beginning. Things such as, 'what if i'm not cut out for happiness?!' and 'Why is this the first time i've ever felt really happy' to even sillier things such as, "oh my god!! What is he going to do when he sees me naked!!??" Looking back those issues seem so trite and so frivolous. The reality is this: i never dreamed i could be this happy, content, supported, valued, desired, loved, treated wonderfully, empowered, and treated like the slut i desire to be all in one relationship. i never thought i would ever meet the kind of man who would truly and sincerely care about me and what's best for me. Not His selfish needs. Recently, i was in a horrible car accident. i never in a million years dreamed He would be so supportive, so kind, so loving, so wonderful. Please do not think i believer our relationship (or either one of us) is perfect, because we are so very far from it. However the reality is that we are both committed to working on this relationship and to each other. i met Him here, through collar me. i do believe that's been my most wonderful positive experiences. Kali
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“Love me when I least deserve it, because that's when I really need it.” ~~Sweedish Proverb
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