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MarksFantasyGirl -> RE: In Love (12/10/2008 8:38:42 PM)
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Ok, seriously, I read the first page of this thread, and I had to stop. I had tears running down my face! I love to hear about people's love and happiness for the person they are with. So With that, I hope everyone else does too, because I'm going to share! lol
When I met my Sweets, we were just kids. I mean wee little. I think we first met before we were even in kindergarden. We had a friendship start from their. I was very shy, awkward, quiet, and didn't have many friends. But He kept pushing me to be more open. He could see inside me, the things that no one else, including myself could see. He had fallen in love with me when we were in second grade. I still can picture the letters that He would write to me asking me to be His girlfriend. You know, the whole "Circle yes or no" thing. And I always circled OR. lol I didn't know what to do. And I couldn't ask one of my friends. I didn't have any but Him. So, one day in like third grade, I gave in. I finally said that I would be His girlfriend. It was a typical grade school romance. We would call eachother on the phone and hang on there watching TV for HOURS not saying anything to each other. We never held hands, kissed, hugged, or anything like that. But I was His girlfriend for 4 years. We broke up because my mom told me that I had to. I had told her that He called me a bitch (actually, He called me HIS bitch. Hmmm... If only I had known then what I know now... lol), and she made me brake up with Him. But we remained friends. We had been friends for YEARS. We both dated other people, and nothing really seemed to work. For some reason, unknown to us, the people that we were with, never liked us to be around each other. I could never tell why His girlfriends didn't want Him around me, and why my boyfriends got all protective when He would come around.
Well, When I was with my ex, we were going through a VERY rough time. I knew that he and I were going to brake up... It was just one of those things. We were fighting all the time. We didn't seem to get along at all anymore. Our child was suffering for it. And I just needed a friend. So I called up the only person to be there for me no matter what. And No matter when I needed Him, He was there for me. We would be on the phone for hours talking about absolutely nothing, but EVERYTHING all at the same time. He would come over to my house when I couldn't take the UM out, and we would just watch TV, Hang out, talk, play games, anything to get my mind off of things. Or we would go to the park, and just hang out talking. He never judged me, or told me what I NEEDED to do. He was just there.
One night, after another argument over the phone with the ex, I was lying on my bed, Sweets was sitting on the corner of my bed, and I was crying. I was trying so hard not to. I had my eyes closed trying to hold back the tears, but they fell anyway. Just about the time I realized that my hair was soaked, He leaned down and gave me the softest, sweetest, most gentle-ist kiss ever. I always thought that what they said in movies was cliche, but I really felt sparks. There was that connection. something that I have been looking for for a very long time. I knew, right then, that I was in love. I fought it for a long time. I didn't want to be in love. I already WAS in love. But now, I wouldn't trade it for anything. He really has been my past, present, and future. I wasn't looking for love. Just a friend. And I got sooo much more.
I am now in love with, in a relationship with, collared by, and really missing my best friend. He is the only person that I trust enough to give myself to completely. He's the only one that I feel I could ever call "Master".
There's a LOT more to our story, but for these porposes, I think that this will be safice! lol (Don't make fun of my spelling! lol)
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