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Delimma - 10/15/2008 2:10:48 PM

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I've been living with this for quite a few years now and need to know what you all think.
I am intersted in both becoming a dom to a sub female and or becoming a sub/slave to a dom/domme. Unfortunately for me I'm married to a wife that has no interests in being my domme. She also gets a bit protective of me as well. So when I want to have some bondage fun I have to do it while she is at work. Now that too is a problem as we both work the same shifts. Work right now is more important than bdsm. At least until we get ourselves straightened out a bit.
Wife does know that I like to be bound up, but when she ties me up it is for her to pop my bumps that I have on me. Not what I was having in mind. I've tried getting her interested in the lifestyle, but to no resolve. So I'm stuck. I have a friend in charlotte, nc that i visit on occassion. and it is more for my pleasure than his, which he is wanting to turn around so that I could become a proper slave/sub for him. I have no problem serving men or women, but wife doesn't know that as well.
I sometimes think I got married for the wrong reasons. or that the true love spark is gone from our marriage becuase of this interest of mine or not....not sure.
I would love to ideally be restrained from the moment I get home from and do chores that have been assigned to me. I would be kept in restraints for the entire afternoon and night. Bound up in bed and not let go until I have to get up in the morning. Now it is 430a that I need up and with one car we need to both be out by 6a to get me to work on time.

Another is that I would love to be brainwashed and conditioned into something else that is not me. I have an attachment towards cybernetics and robotic droids. I love the idea of being programmed and commanded to do something with no resistance on my part as my human self will no longer be in charge of my body and mind.
In other words I would love to give up complete control to a master or mistress. But nature is drawing me towards the mistress.

How can I get this accomplished?
Sometimes it drives me nuts
At night I have dreams about being controlled by another as well.
This is deeply rooted in my sub consious mind I know that.

I do feel that with in 50 years or so we'll have this technology a little more affordable and readible to us.
I just need to have my mind wiped and re programmed....that should take care of my current problems.
Hope you can help me here.

On this post I am sealeo15dog on my other nic I am windwalker81570.

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RE: Delimma - 10/15/2008 2:14:31 PM

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Need established first, will your wife be kept aware of your activities? how does she feel about it all?

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RE: Delimma - 10/15/2008 5:41:28 PM

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I think you have had far too much time thinking of this! Your desires are a bit unrealistic for real life. Your hunger is turning into something else and you might want to consider that you are acting compulsive about things when you go so far as to say that your wife doesn't know this or that and you question your reasons for marriage and love and all that. Before you get yourself into trouble... you might want to take a step back, calm down and really think things through.

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RE: Delimma - 10/16/2008 4:08:16 PM

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It's true that it may be unrealistic now, but I also mentioned that maybe in the near future say 50 years down the road. But if it were possible to be done today I would do it
I haven't said out rite that I want to be a mind controlled slave to my wife or master controller per se. She would love the idea of being able to just flip a switch and have me not able to talk until she wanted me to. Or to perform more chores around the house with out question. just complete obedience.
The fact about it becoming my dream life is something totaly different. We all know that dreams are controlled by our desires for the most part or by our subconscious mind trying to tell us something. I just can't get over how many times I've had dreams like that I have posted.
I do sometimes wish that I can talk it over with myself....just not sure how to go about that. I've tried self hypnosis and failed. Even done an impromptu in person session with a friend of mine and wasn't able to enter into a decent trance. I have been able to go way down in relaxation.
But then I would have a problem with the suggestions.
So whenever we come up with a device that will allow us to record our dreams and interact with them easier then I'll be game as well.

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RE: Delimma - 10/16/2008 4:24:00 PM

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quote:

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I haven't said out rite that I want to be a mind controlled slave to my wife or master controller per se. She would love the idea of being able to just flip a switch and have me not able to talk until she wanted me to. Or to perform more chores around the house with out question. just complete obedience.

Wait...if she wants it, and you want it...what is the problem? Is this your wife you are referring to, or the fantasy Dominant?

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RE: Dilemma - 10/16/2008 6:14:58 PM

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I'm married and a submissive to another who is also married. start by talking with your spouse and explaining to her what it is you like and why. with full communication there can be understanding.let her know how you feel and ask her help.be honest and upfront with her as if you lose her trust it is hard to regain. my wife has put limits on some activities for her comfort and has even had Christmas dinner with my M'Lady. this may not be how it works out for you but you will have to see where the path leads.

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RE: Dilemma - 10/16/2008 6:28:25 PM

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From everything you have said... I jump to a few assumptions. One, you are looking outside yourself for the answers and two, you are very self focused. I would suggest figuring out why you feel someone else doing something or hypnosis or anything else will bring you comfort, understanding or fulfillment, when looking inside yourself and finding some answers might actually be easier and more effective. How realistic is your dream of submission when one must also live life? Why do you wish for extreme's? Why do you focus on what you want and your dreams and desires and will you focus on them to the point of being unrealistic or compulsive and to the point of damaging real and current relationships?

This isn't just a matter of communicating your desires to your wife. This is however, in my opinion... all about understanding yourself and life tools.

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RE: Dilemma - 10/17/2008 1:33:30 PM

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To answer Lockits' post....Its got to do with my robotic fetish that I have. Wife doesn't know that part, but I have hinted to her of how submissive I am and she somewhat knows. I think what it is...it that she's not interested in the lifestyle period. For her. She grew up in a matriarch family. Her mom and grandmother ruled the household. I've no problem with that. But browsing through the internet these years I've realized That I've wanted to be controlled unconditionally. To be a Bio-Organic Tool or BOT. True thats not possible now. but when cybernetics do come available I will deffinately want to get some.

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RE: Dilemma - 10/17/2008 2:18:59 PM

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So...talking to your wife and getting to full disclosure is pretty important here - if you ever want to really experience any of what you have talked about here. You say that she is not into it, and that -can- be fine, as long as she is willing to let you be who you feel you are, and you are willing to honor her desire to not participate.

I think you can probably find someone who is willing to play the robot game with you, but don't expect that technology is someday gonna wipe your mind - not in your lifetime or your kids likely...

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RE: Dilemma - 10/17/2008 2:39:56 PM

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I think you can probably find someone who is willing to play the robot game with you, but don't expect that technology is someday gonna wipe your mind - not in your lifetime or your kids likely...

Geez, I fucking hope not! I like my mind.

OP, get real: unless you and your wife are working the same shifts as super scientists in a comic book, no one is going to be able to wipe your memory and make you a robot.
You COULD talk to your wife and tell her EVERYTHING so that she can make an informed decision. Let her actually reject you before you start planning secret trysts, Mr. Roboto.

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RE: Dilemma - 10/18/2008 2:23:29 AM

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I do realize that technology isn't here yet, and may even be past my lifetime b4 it becomes available.
I did however say it is a robotic fetish. I do tend to communicate better through the keyboard than speaking....I'm thinking the best way for me to inform wife of my interests in being controlled is to just truelly talk to her.
I do appreciate you all in answering this post.

Another fact about this fetish I have is the applications that it could have in the medical field as well. Which is also why I mentioned the cybernetics aspect.
I sometimes do wish that I were a mad scientist as well. Then with some of my inventions that I would have invented I wouldn't have a problem at all. Unless I get sued over my inventions......but is just a fantasy.
Will write more when I get home from work.

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RE: Dilemma - 10/18/2008 11:59:02 AM

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LOL... you are hell bent on this aren't you? Okay... I get that you don't want to deal with being a human and wish to be a robot, call it whatever you want. But have you once thought about what your wife would want? Let me tell you honestly... I have never seen a robots cock... and find the idea of a robot lover rather scary and cold... but whatever I feel isn't the important thing here. What your wife feels is. You want to be controlled, robot like and all that... dream on... I doubt that even mad science will go there in the realm of human beings... what would the incentive or motive be to discover such things?

You want to live in a fantasyland... more power to you... but don't be surprised if your wife has a really good lawyer friend and takes an exit, because it sounds to me, like you already have.

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