atypicalsub
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Joined: 4/11/2008 From: an atypical sub Status: offline
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ORIGINAL: yourbossmansbaby He tells me things will be easier when i can go to Him, be with Him for real. I fully believe this. I want nothing more than to give my everything to Him. He plans to "erase" all the bad memories, to break the negitive thoughts and lack of self worth/respect. He will also impliment eyes contact restriction, speach restriction, and so on. The second will be very hard as I love to talk. He tells me that I have to stop thinking, not to worry if I will upset Him or be punished for what i say. It is hard not to worry as i have been beaten for the simplest and most retarded reasons. I fear the same will happen with Him although He is always telling me different. My question, how can I just relax and go with it? You know, just let go and know everything will be fine. What has he done to earn your trust? You don't need to post the answer or tell me, but it is a question you need to think about yourself. In order for you not to worry about anything you need to trust that everything will be taken care of. Has he done anything to instill an infinate level of trust in you? I suspect not or you wouldn't be here asking this. You have reservations. You are probably not ready to give yourself over so completely. If he says it has to be 'all or nothing' I would highly recomend taking nothing and looking for a different dominant. He is promising things that are impossible. No one can erase your memories or eliminate all your pain. No one can change things that have happened to you in the past. I just completed this process myself. I talked online with dozens of dominants. A month ago I relocated to be with my Mistress. I had come and visited with her over the summer and gone back home again. I got luck and me made an excellent match. Was it all luck? No, many dominants had approched me online. It was a process of getting to know each of them until I found one who I felt I could trust, and I had enough in common with that I could see us being comfortable together living in the same space. btw: Does anyone else feel there's a contridiction here? He wants to his slave to not worry that he will be get upset by anything she says, but he want to restrict what she can say.
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Polyamorous, solitary eclectic pagan, pansexual slut, and personal pet of MistressYes "Do not do anything you are ashamed of, and don't be ashamed of anything you do" (although I'm sure my bio-family wishes I did less and was ashamed of more)
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