swpea
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hello, am new to the forum and hope all of you will offer your patience with my ramblings *smiles*........ quote:
ORIGINAL: sweetsub0 i would like to know if any others have recovered from experiences with really bad Doms. If you have answers please post them or e-mail me sweetsub0 quote:
If yPsychological conditioning does happen during dominance/submission activities, and it takes significant time and effort to extinguish learned behaviors and linked emotions. I wish you the best of luck. --J i had been with a so-called 'Master' for about a year and in a high end bdsm and protocol Master/slave relationship, this was real-time (never was into the cyber thing). there was deep psychological conditioning during this time and it was consensual and there was trust in limits. we were nearing the end of our first year of 'getting to know' and exploring each other. when the 'bad' occured (hard limits were violated) the incident was so traumatic it left me in a state where i was unable to function normally, my motor functions disconnected, just typing a sentence in an email took all the energy i had. it was just as difficult to disconnect from him emotionally. thankfully i had experienced lifestyle friends who surrounded me and knew what to do to help as much as they could and they were there for me every step of the way in my 'reconditioning'. i had made a promise to go into domestic violence counseling (this was chosen as i had the symptoms of others having suffered this) for at least a year, this was not kink friendly so i had to do much of it on my own as well. i made it due to my own determination that when i was ready again i could go to Another whole. i wouldn't have been able to this without my leather family's support! i ask some of you to not judge so harshly of those who have difficulty in 'getting over it', it's not so easy. please keep in mind that it is easy to step out of 'role play' if that is what the nature of the relationship is about, but for some, it's quite seriously lived. there are some who have submissive/slave traits that are a part of their very being, not something that can be turned off or on like a light switch. i strongly agree with the suggestion made to get counseling, you will be glad you did that for yourself. going into another relationship right now would not be fair to you or Another. hope you take much of the sound advice that others have taken the time to offer to you at this time. the choice is now your responsibility. good luck, swpea
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