pantherkitten
Posts: 10
Joined: 12/10/2008 From: South Carolina Status: offline
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Traits of mine that I associate with my switchiness- A desire to please. I'm (and have been all my life) somewhat passively resistant to authority. Good self-confidence. An incredible liking for flattery. Tending to want a bit of control over my interpersonal relationships (which makes NOT having control seem much more intimate, but HAVING control seem a little more natural?). Being very impulsive, playful, challenging. But not liking being challenging, really, unless there's someone who can challenge me equally. I dunno. I enjoy feeling dominated. I enjoy dominating. I don't have 'daddy issues' but I guess there is some of my childhood in there- I spent a lot of my childhood trying to get acceptance from my dad, and trying to please my dad (who is a rather difficult person to please- does not exactly approve of someone easily). My mom was kind of a pushover. I always made guy friends and attracted men fairly easily. I am dommy with most men and it's really hard to be comfortable being a sub but when I am capable of that, when I do have that going on, it's like the best thing ever. I also love being dommy, and I have yet to ever feel subby with another girl, but I don't know that it's impossible or anything. Wanted to throw in, also: With me, it's totally about the person. I could top someone, probably, that I didn't have intense intense intense feelings for, but I wouldn't really like it - I wouldn't sub in that situation for a million bucks. It's emotional for me, though less emotion is required for feeling toppy. I think it comes from more of a feeling of vulnerability - I would say it's so much easier for me to top, it comes more naturally, it's how I conduct myself, and in a very subtle way... I'm not aggressive or domineering at all... but um... Yeah. I would say, in my switchiness, I'm like... deep down, I'm a sub, but I'm dommy enough that I want to challenge it a lot, that I'm playful and (not all the time, not all the time) kinda rebellious now and then. My current person I'm with just laughs if I joke about topping him, or knows that I'm kind of asking for it... I say that I like to feel the walls of the invisible box sometimes, the box being his dominance, what's inside the box being me. But then, yeah, I can feel quite toppy, too, I think about it a lot... I dunno. I could ramble on and on forever, haha.
< Message edited by pantherkitten -- 12/13/2008 7:31:00 AM >
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