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SthrnCom4t -> RE: Subspace (2/3/2009 6:00:59 PM)
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For me, Topspace is the farthest point of Top headspace. I can get into Top headspace interacting directly with a submissive mentally/verbally, or even just in anticipation of a scene I am going to do later that day. The outlining in my head what my Intent will be and the tools/sequence I think will help me create that result. (Of note; in my head I generalize during planning, but become very intuitive and open to where the scene flows when we are actually creating it).
As I get near pre-Scene, I get strong opinions about how I want things to be, and I don't tend to be as laidback and 'easy going' as I am most of the time. I do a very poor job at 'compromising' when I'm in this mindset, and have gotten very annoyed, when at the last minute, another person's actions derailed the energetic connection building to that Scene start time. This doesn't translate into bitchy, just VERY confident, direct and very focused.
When we commence, it doesn't take long for me to hit Topspace when I'm in my home dungeon. Public play takes a little longer, but certainly happens often.
Topspace, for me, is similar to what has been mentioned above. My world shrinks down to My boy....his expression, body language, breathing pattern, etc. We lose time and space in the bubble we create together. It's almost the antithesis of subspace. Instead of zoning out in an altered state of consciousness, it's pinprick focus. It's like coming out of a final college exam where I've been concentrating intently for several hours. He is what I am seeing, touching, smelling, feeling, tasting, hearing, intuitively sensing. I know when he goes 'bliss', and I love to be the one who facilitates his flight. When I bring him back, he is completely open and raw energetically, and its like a feast, I can taste. Often, he is incapable of speech, or at the most, single words. His mind has literally been 'erased' in the experience. In the aftercare stage is when I relax into our connection. ( I think that was states above, too.) We curl into each other physically and just 'feel'.
Energetically the experience has been and continues to be symbiotic; like when you were a kid, in the bathtub and you'd push the water to the front on one side of you, and toward your back with your other hand. You created the momentum, and then you would stop and enjoy the continuing water motion.
Depending on the type of scene, sometimes this part is as far from sex as you can get, but as close energetically/spiritually, as is possible to be. It's like melding into each other. Even 24-48+ hours afterward, I can still 'feel' him energetically, whether we are in the same geographic location or not.
Great question, thanks for starting this topic.
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