hejira92
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Joined: 10/27/2005 From: Palm Beach County, Fl Status: offline
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I think for most people in LTRs, sometimes it's great, other times good and sometimes tolerable. Things cycle. Honesty must be 24/7. I would worry about him seeming sad rather than discussing something on his mind. Personally, sometimes He doesn't want me to enjoy sex, or even hotter, doesn't care. If He does want me to enjoy myself and I don't, I will tell Him and why (sometimes an off day, my body wasn't responding normally because of hormones, whatever). But my obligation is to tell Him the truth- always. Often, in sex and/or play, even when I am not enjoying it (and I don't enjoy most pain- He enjoys seeing me take it for Him), what I AM enjoying is being the object of HIS sadistic pleasure. So, while I may hate what He's doing to me, I love that He's getting pleasure from it. I don't know that I'm explaining it well, but it is all wrapped up in the need to please Him and see Him happy. And it gets really confusing when He asks if I am enjoying myself while He is "torturing" me (in quote because everything is, of course 100% consensual). I want to say, "no", but if I am not blindfolded I can see the gleem in His eye and I love that. So, I have to say "yes, I am enjoying myself" when He knows I hate what He is doing to me. It's actually a mind fuck. I get so confused- and He loves that. I guess it's great to enjoy every encounter, but as I'm His to enjoy, it doesn't really matter if I do as long as I'm pleasing Him.
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