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lovingpet -> RE: Frenzy (3/11/2009 6:17:30 AM)
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I am free to play, play, play too. I will say, my partners are more interested in me getting to experience lots of types of play and personalities of dominants. They are also aware I have a switchie itchy that will need tending to at some point. I think there comes a time when it all clicks. I see it this way. These wonderful people are my connection to all these experiences and people. How much they must be investing in me to do this for me! Realizing this, bonds me that much closer to them. They stand apart from the pack and the invisible grip around my little neck grows that much tighter.
What is most interesting at this point is that I am not with the dominant I fantasized about, though I would love to play like that at some point. I wound up drawn to something completely different. I don't think I could go back to my original ideal as a full relationship because the emotions and connections would be all different. I would only want it as a fun diversion from our usual or in another partner with whom I am not going to pursue a longer range commitment. I can talk about all this at length because I am recently coming out the other side of "frenzy" so to speak. It is different over here.
I also think there is a big difference between initial frenzy and maintenence frenzy. Initial frenzy is when everything is oh so shiny and new. I tend to look at this as the desire for EVERYTHING right now. Ownership, sensantions, experiences and all. It can lead to some bad things as does rushing into anything, but with the added bonus of winding up tied and gagged with basically weapons at the other's disposal. Mantenience frenzy has more to do with getting all these needs met by someone who can remain unattached during an absence or search after losing a partner. This is different and often there is a safety net available of friends and environments that can accommodate this and keep things from getting as out of sorts as they were in initial frenzy. This is not always the case, but I think then we are talking about two different sets of needs and intensities and may cause a differentiation like the one discussed in the OP.
lovingpet
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