I realised today after seeing yet another forum thread (elsewhere) that I have been seriously deprived.
The reason being: I did not have scores of cmails from fakes and scammers.
I have met quite a few people in r/l and they were all real.
Thinking back on it I wonder if the reason why I never found scores of fakes and wannabes is simply because I wasn't looking for them.
I sought information and found plenty of that.
I was interested in the possibility of friendships and discovered people I could have that with in varying depths.
I was interested in connection and I found that too!
When one relationship ended, I did not wring my hands, nor gnash my teeth over how fake he turned out to be.
I was gratetful for the experience.
In the beginning, I learned to trust.
In the middle, I learned that "direction was more important than speed".
In the end, I learned I was stronger than I knew.
We are still friends.
Now I am in a different relationship that is better suited to my needs.
I want to serve Him well...as well as He leads.
The chances of it lasting forever are pretty close to nil.
I am being realistic, not pessimistic: the odds that any relationship will last forever, is also pretty close to nil.
Rumor has it that people eventually die.
Today is all we ever really have.
So...I am loving being His and loving my "happy middle".
IF it were to end tomorrow however, he will not suddenly go from being Master Wonderful to a scum sucking fake.
I know the search is frustrating to so many people.
There probably are tons of fakes, scammers, liars and wankers.
I just didn't notice them.
I was too busy getting to know good people and reading interesting posts to have much time for anything else, I think.
Looks like I'm part of this crowd too! Everyone is real though sometimes their reality isn't compatable to my reality yet that's fine. Thank you for this.
~Resident Sadist Approved~
Take the pain
Take the pleasure
I'm the master of both
Close your eyes, not your mind
Let me into your soul
I'm gonna work it 'til your totally blown