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kyraofMists -> RE: Your First Experience (3/2/2006 4:40:18 PM)
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ORIGINAL: MistressOfGa
Submissives: is there anything you would have wanted differently and how did your first time shape the kind of submissive you are today?
That depends on what you would consider my "first time". I was playing at bondage since I was a teenager... and come to think of it, I was in a poly relationship when I was a freshman in high school. I have always enjoyed aggressive sex, the rougher the better. But I distinctly remember the first time I learned that I get off on pain.
I was a new graduate student, walked into the apartment I was sharing with a man and he slammed me up against the wall so hard that I hit my head and knocked the wind out of me. The pain radiated down my back and arms and I got wet. I was so horny and ready to go and at first he was apologetic, then he took a good look at me and said "That turned you on". We had a fun afternoon, but I think that scared him because he was definitely more gentle. My Lord is the first person who has been willing to take me to the edge of what I can endure.
The first time my Lord played with me using toys was more of a testing... trying different things to see what I liked, didn't like... Both of us consider it just exploring and not really a play session. The first play session was the three of us, my Lord, alandra and I. I was so far gone that I do not remember half of it. It was only after the fact that I learned he used clothespins on me. I would not have wanted anything different. I was very happy that my first play included all three of us.
I don't think any of this has shaped me into the submissive that I am today. It has all lead me to the realization that I get off on pain, I get off on aggression, I get off on passion, I get off on being controlled.
Knight's kyra
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