Termyn8or -> RE: Social Isolation Worsens Cancer (3/8/2010 11:08:23 PM)
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FR In light of my own cancer thread, I thought it might be appropriate to send something here. Most people are social creatures. They crave and seek human attention. For people like that I would say that the original statement is 100% true. But then there is this society in which we live, with atrocuties and whatnot, and this is on top of all the wierdo shit anyone does consentually. It seems to never end. Now I am having a hard time wrapping my mind around this. Mom got one hug before going in for a quad bypass. I got hit with black mold last year. I am going blind. But I do not want a bunch of people around watching me shit my pants and puke and bleed all over the place. I prefer to be alone, and remembered in my former, tough, asshole with a gun state. I don't want to have anyone see my weakness. I refused to go see my good friend Jim Watt on his death bed because I figured he did not want me there. He did not call me his daughter did. She's a fucking ninny and if she ever knew what a Man was it must have gotten knocked out of her head by one of those assholes she fucked. When I got shot back in the 1980s, I didn't want a big crowd around me. Some brought me the necessities, weed, beer and smokes. I did not really want to have a party while I am in a hospital bed. Actually I was out in five days, which is something because I had been shot in the head. When I am sick I am not so sure if I want company. I guess it boils down to whether or not you are dependent on others for you emotional well being. Where I differ is that my emotions are under strict control. If they weren't I would be dead by now. I can understand that when the prognosis can go either way, that the support of family and friends can help, but really, on my death bed I would rather be alone. My pragmatism about this subject can be repulsive to some, but as usual, damn me for what I am. T
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