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Surrenderwithin -> RE: Are you happy where you are? (10/17/2009 6:41:13 PM)
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I wrote this some time ago and posted it in my journal. It originated with me thinking on the OP. I had been feeling unsettled and malcontent for a time and missing the NRE Of our power exchange. Master had a new slave at the time and watching he and her with the NRE made me begin to ponder and hunger for that newness again. I thought these thoughts to be pertinent to the OP and decided to share:
I do not wish to write this and leave and implication that it is a new revealation for me. The knowledge of this fact, has always been within myself. The strength to act upon the knowledge and stand strong in my faith, of the flow, so to speak, has at times been weak.
Anne Lindgerbh once said,"We have so little faith in the ebb and flow of life, of love, of relationships. We leap at the flow of time and resist in terror its ebb. We are afraid it will never return. We insist on permanency, on duration, on continuity; when the only continuity possible in life, as in love, is in growth, in fluidity - in freedom."
I suppose my true post is that about faith, and belief, even in the midst of the ebb, the ebb that may seem a drought. You know that one day that " waters" are bound to return. However, the one day return doesn't quench the thirst of the moment, or the day for that matter.I have often looked at the " ebb and flow" of our power exchange dynamic as a cup. When the presence of his Dominance and my submission flow through out our life, and we can thrive upon those feelings... I have said that my cup runneth over. When he challenges me, and I strive to pleae him, even making sacrifices of myself, I am offering up my cup, to his lips of Dominance. When he challenges me greatly, I may often feel that my cup is beginning to run dry. If life gets in the way of our dynamic, I may feel the same way. This is but the ebb of our love.The greater ebb, the more wonderous the flow must be... such momementum it can gain as it returns to us and fills not only our cup, but our life.The flow is upon us once again, as our cups are at the brim... and filling more each day and spilling over into our fulfillment and our happiness together. The waters of completion, the fluid of unity.... the rain is our devotion and a symbol of our exchange.I cannot help but think of the rainbow, and the promise it brings with its presence. It is said that a rainbow is the creators symbol of a promise to never again flood the entire earth.... Yet, I think of it in somewhat different terms. In the story of Noah, the waters were a bad thing, yet in my comparison the flow is ever needed. When we first meet the waters flow was tremendous, as we had so much to discover together and learn of one another. We embarked upon a journey into one another hearts.We found our eternal home with the other soul. The Flow of the waters was beautiful and amazing...When I see a rainbow, it reminds me that we shall never again experience those same rough waters, yet they will always be a part of who we are and we have together. The waters, which we now sail, are calm and peaceful. We have found the lake of serenity in the maturity of our love. I was searching for the choppy waters, the current, and the excitement that it brings rather than the depth we have achieved. I now long to explore the depths of the waters we share.I have spent so many days, years looking and searching for those old feelings of excitement and thrill and newness....calling our life and relationship.. empty, dry, and ebb.... Today I realize that I was so busy watching for the rough waters that I was missing the peaceful sail we have together each and everyday. We float together in the knowledge of who we are and how we have become one.You are the Master, and I am the slave. You are the husband, and I am your wife. You are the Man, and I am your woman. We complete each other and that is the key to these waters of peace. I realize now the maturity of our love and our power exchange. I see the intensity in depth, rather than current.Even now, there will ebb and there will be flow.... but it not be so extreme, as we reached a place of depth and truth. As Lindgberg said, it is this fluidity that has breathed life into the freedom, liberty we have achieved within the chains I wear, and you hold.Hold me.... until the end of time, and call me your own.You are my world, and I love you...MasterThank you for continuing to sail with me. I am eager to spend my life upon these waters with you, and enjoy the peaceful flow and serenity, as together we continue to explore the depths of what we have become.~ your slavegirl forevermore~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~"For relationships, too, must be like islands. One must accept them for what they are here and now, within their limits - islands surrounded and interrupted by the sea, continuously visited and abandoned by the tides. One must accept the serenity of the winged life, of ebb and flow, of intermittency. "
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[link=http://zaadz.com/quotes/Anne_Lindbergh]Anne Lindbergh
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